Venting Lonely so lonely

[Life_is_comedy]

Every time I wake up, I always have this feeling that I'm all alone, that I have no one and that no one wants me. First things first, I have no friends. My former homies made it sure that it is that way. I rarely talk with family as well. See, they are hooked in the digital world most of the time with their faces in front of a cell phone or computer when they're at home and if they aren't, they have lives of their own so I rarely communicate with them.

Really, I do go on days without talking to anyone for 4-5 days before having brief conversations with someone I bump to in the street or me going out of my way to visit someone like relatives, cousins and acquaintances I know even if they have made it clear in our conversations that they don't want any visitors because they're tired or busy or at work yet. Imagine being told no one has no time for you and being implied that I don't want you near me, etc, but I still go anyway because of my desperation.

I know my story is just a copy-paste of many others all around the world. I know it's not unique but how do people go on living through this? It's like I'm destined to die and commit suicide no matter what. Just when I think things are looking up again, some cosmic force from above pulls the rug as if telling me, "You're not off the hook that easy." Why me? What did I do to deserve this?

 

[Good4Nothing]

That last paragraph is me, too.

 

[nitroautnz]

None of our/your stories is copy past,e we all unique in our own way, i wish i have the answer for myself too, we wouldn't be here otherwise. But the comfort i take is i find a new family here, with people that don't judge you and accept you no matter your past or your problems
You will always be welcome to post here if you feel lonely, you can come to chat in private too if you want :)

 

[Life_is_comedy]

None of our/your stories is copy past,e we all unique in our own way, i wish i have the answer for myself too, we wouldn't be here otherwise. But the comfort i take is i find a new family here, with people that don't judge you and accept you no matter your past or your problems

Yeah, it's really just too bad we're all just scattered around the world that our interactions are limited online. Nothing still beats 100% face-to-face genuine human interaction. If it were up to me and I had the resources and money, I would put up some kind of community for people like us or something.

 

[nitroautnz]

Yeah, it's really just too bad we're all just scattered around the world that our interactions are limited online. Nothing still beats 100% face-to-face genuine human interaction. If it were up to me and I had the resources and money, I would put up some kind of community for people like us or something.

Yes i know what you mean, i understand it, but at least its something. Better than nothing, i know that face to face interaction stress me and confuse me sometime but i miss and need them too.

 

[RC90]

Loneliness is the real pandemic going on. Ever since these social media came, we lost that human side of us. It's apps for everything, dating, sex, taxis, eating, shopping. And slowly we are losing that human factor that's why so many people are lonely. We are sociable human beings. I look at my photos from 2009 and there was no smart phones, and yet we were having barbecues, talking in pubs. Talking to strangers, I loved and even still love engaging talking with taxi drivers.

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

It's weird, because I haven't felt lonely in past months. I used to feel thay way and my situation only got worse. I don't know, I guess I got used to it. Now I feel indifferent towards having people who care for me and not having them.