Loneliness

[fieryending]

I feel like, after a while, loneliness doesn't hurt as much anymore. It can even be comforting in a way, addicting. After you go a while without having many close friends, you get used to being alone. The friends you do have are harder to keep in touch with because being a friend takes effort. It can be taxing to have a conversation with someone, even a close friend. I think I push all my friends away by never being open to conversation or responsive to them. It's much easier to stay in bed all day, playing video games and watching movies. I barely message people and I don't use social media. High school was lonely, but I got used to it after a while. I surprised myself when I had the thought "maybe I don't need friends, I'm not that good of a friend anyway." I always used to wish for friends and have people to interact with, but now I feel like loneliness is better for me. I'll have fewer people to disappoint when I finally ctb.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I know what you mean I used to feel like that. I even thought I was schizoid for a while.

 

[fieryending]

I know what you mean I used to feel like that. I even thought I was schizoid for a while.

Thats cool that you can relate. It really do be like that sometimes.

 

[JimFord99]

Sort of, I enjoy loneliness, I love the silence and solitude. No baggage, no strings attached. I don't use social media either.

 

[Qverty7455]

I used to enjoy being alone aswell because I never had gf before...but after I broke up with my ex loneliness is destroying me and I feel so alone and want to die even more...:( I miss the feeling of belonging to someone...to have someone to count one to have someone to chat to have someone with spend your free time with etc...

 

[truthseeker]

Another thing on my plate. Odd to me that I've never felt connected to this world or the people in it, yet I still desire some kind of meaningful human contact. Why I can't say at this point but as I get older and my health continues to go downhill, I'm learning to accept my 'independence'. Less disappointment that way.

 

[Midnight]

Loneliness as in little or no friends or little contact with family i can deal with.
Loneliness as in not having a SO is the bane of my existence. It'l be the end of me one day too.

 

[DarkDane]

I used to enjoy being alone aswell because I never had gf before...but after I broke up with my ex loneliness is destroying me and I feel so alone and want to die even more...:( I miss the feeling of belonging to someone...to have someone to count one to have someone to chat to have someone with spend your free time with etc...

I feel you.
Same with me, was always alone, but then i met a long term partner and now being alone is soulchrushing

 

[I’vehadenough]

Idk how you guys feel that way. Loneliness kills me and it is killing me. I have a sex addiction, I'm in the worst hell ever. Maybe you can teach me how to enjoy being lonely lol

 

[fieryending]

I've never had a partner before, so I can't relate. It does kinda suck that I'm going to die before experiencing having an SO. 18 years without boyfriend/girlfriend just to end it abruptly. It kinda feels like a waste.

 

[ChristopherWalken]

I've never had a partner before, so I can't relate. It does kinda suck that I'm going to die before experiencing having an SO. 18 years without boyfriend/girlfriend just to end it abruptly. It kinda feels like a waste.

You should try it you never know how you might feel.
I wish I could have a girlfriend one last time because I'm going nuts being all alone just me and my cats in this empty house. But my circumstances are going to force me to leave this world within the next month or so. So I can't get close to anyone and then hurt them like that. The loneliness and depression are soul-crushing.

 

[morningdew]

I'm finally used to it after 4 years. I actually prefer it now.

 

[CursedForDisaster]

I feel like, after a while, loneliness doesn't hurt as much anymore. It can even be comforting in a way, addicting. After you go a while without having many close friends, you get used to being alone. The friends you do have are harder to keep in touch with because being a friend takes effort. It can be taxing to have a conversation with someone, even a close friend. I think I push all my friends away by never being open to conversation or responsive to them. It's much easier to stay in bed all day, playing video games and watching movies. I barely message people and I don't use social media. High school was lonely, but I got used to it after a while. I surprised myself when I had the thought "maybe I don't need friends, I'm not that good of a friend anyway." I always used to wish for friends and have people to interact with, but now I feel like loneliness is better for me. I'll have fewer people to disappoint when I finally ctb.

I'm also comforted and addicted to my loneliness but it still hurts a lot (but I've got a lot of fucked up baggage and have also been in deep love before so I really miss the feeling of true companionship). I have currently been trying to get in contact with old friends but last time I fell into a wave of depression halfway through, I had felt lonelier than I had in a while and I was right next to an old crush, the night before I was caressing her neck an arms while laying with her on the couch but I still felt dead. I don't even know what loneliness is anymore, it's all the same

 

[Sweet emotion]

There is nothing good or natural about loneliness. I've been forced by a physical condition to be lonely and I don't see how others can voluntarily do it. It's not good to stay secluded. It's just makes you more depressed and makes it impossible for you to have a productive future. Plus what is the use of anything if you have no one to share it with? I mean I'm sure everyone gets lonley once in a while but constant solitude isn't normal. It as a reaction if my condition has brought me severe depression and anxiety.

 

[I’vehadenough]

There is nothing good or natural about loneliness. I've been forced by a physical condition to be lonely and I don't see how others can voluntarily do it. It's not good to stay secluded. It's just makes you more depressed and makes it impossible for you to have a productive future. Plus what is the use of anything if you have no one to share it with? I mean I'm sure everyone gets lonley once in a while but constant solitude isn't normal. It as a reaction if my condition has brought me severe depression and anxiety.

I agree. People would tell me things like go travel etc. So I actually
travelled the whole US and parts of Europe alone bc I had no one to go with and it doesn't have much meaning unless someone is with you

You should try it you never know how you might feel.
I wish I could have a girlfriend one last time because I'm going nuts being all alone just me and my cats in this empty house. But my circumstances are going to force me to leave this world within the next month or so. So I can't get close to anyone and then hurt them like that. The loneliness and depression are soul-crushing.

Miserable. I'm isolated too, but not by choice. No wonder people hang themselves in prison. Loneliness is inhumane

 

[Disintegration]

I used to enjoy being alone aswell because I never had gf before...but after I broke up with my ex loneliness is destroying me and I feel so alone and want to die even more...:( I miss the feeling of belonging to someone...to have someone to count one to have someone to chat to have someone with spend your free time with etc...

That will pass too. I was with someone for 6 years and we were very close. It took quite a while to distance myself emotionally, but year after year things get better. It is just a matter of learning to be more self reliant again. I actually prefer being single most of the time, Ive become a stronger person by focusing my attention on making myself better.

 

[Crushed_Innocence]

I used to enjoy being alone aswell because I never had gf before...but after I broke up with my ex loneliness is destroying me and I feel so alone and want to die even more...:( I miss the feeling of belonging to someone...to have someone to count one to have someone to chat to have someone with spend your free time with etc...

Yup.