Loneliness after a suicide attempt

[Existingnotliving]

How lonely is it after you wake up from a suicide attempt and realise you can't tell anyone? :(

 

[Nymph]

Less lonely than before I found SS

 

[falloutcarter13]

Shit, I wish I'd been undiscovered after my previous failed attempts. Every time I ended up in a ward, and *thats* miserable.

 

[stationarymillennial]

Omg I can't believe you brought this up because it is the worst. One time after i woke up after a failed attempt at hanging I just lied on the floor and cried. I can't imagine ending up in a ward. That's a big fear of mine.

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

It's horrible. The next day, people around me were acting normal and it was freaking me out, because for me, it wasn't a normal day. I was still processing the night, the fact that I was close to death, but failed. They were expecting me to do the every day stuff, but I just couldn't. I almost wasn't even able to speak. I returned home earlier, because I was feeling really unwell, both emotionally and physically (I still had poison in my body).

 

[stationarymillennial]

It's horrible. The next day, people around me were acting normal and it was freaking me out, because for me, it wasn't a normal day. I was still processing the night, the fact that I was close to death, but failed.

I know what you mean. It's like being in an entirely different dimension.

 

[Final Escape]

How lonely is it after you wake up from a suicide attempt and realise you can't tell anyone? :(. This is a big fear of mine. Yea brutal

 

[Emily123]

i am very sorry . did it happen to you? i can imagine that it could be very difficult . if it happens to me, i will cry a lot

 

[Existingnotliving]

Shit, I wish I'd been undiscovered after my previous failed attempts. Every time I ended up in a ward, and *thats* miserable.

Yes I've ended up on wards before for treatment and it's not fun at all. Again a very lonely place to be and even more so once you go home and no body apart from staff at the hospital know so you have to carry on like normal.

 

[TotallyIsolated]

It's horrible. The worst feeling. Not just that people can't handle it or would panic and send you to hospital, but also feeling like "if I tell anyone then that proves I was just doing it for attention". People make jokes about jumping off cliffs or one time I was on holiday with my family close to my chosen spot (beachy head) and theyre like "have you been here before?"

 

[whitelacedress]

How lonely is it after you wake up from a suicide attempt and realise you can't tell anyone? :(

After two of my attempts, I felt very strange at home, I didn't know how to act, feel and exist, it was surreal
After another one I felt like I will hug a stranger on the way home, but it was late and noone was on the streets

 

[LastRide]

You're not alone ! We're here with you !

 

[Deleted member 23726]

Shit, I wish I'd been undiscovered after my previous failed attempts. Every time I ended up in a ward, and *thats* miserable.

What method did you use? Was it painful? Did you dream of anything when unconscious?

After two of my attempts, I felt very strange at home, I didn't know how to act, feel and exist, it was surreal
After another one I felt like I will hug a stranger on the way home, but it was late and noone was on the streets

Why? Were you scared or what? What method did you use and was it painful when you became unconscious? Did you dream of anything?

It's horrible. The worst feeling. Not just that people can't handle it or would panic and send you to hospital, but also feeling like "if I tell anyone then that proves I was just doing it for attention". People make jokes about jumping off cliffs or one time I was on holiday with my family close to my chosen spot (beachy head) and theyre like "have you been here before?"

What method did you use? Was it painful? Did you dream of anything when unconscious?

It's horrible. The next day, people around me were acting normal and it was freaking me out, because for me, it wasn't a normal day. I was still processing the night, the fact that I was close to death, but failed. They were expecting me to do the every day stuff, but I just couldn't. I almost wasn't even able to speak. I returned home earlier, because I was feeling really unwell, both emotionally and physically (I still had poison in my body).

What method did you use? Was it painful When you were unconscious? Did you dream of anything?

 

[NodusTollens]

Yeah... I felt empty beforehand, &I've felt like a ghost ever since. Being around people is draining &I spend my days trying to fill the silence.

 

[Deleted member 23726]

Yeah... I felt empty beforehand, &I've felt like a ghost ever since. Being around people is draining &I spend my days trying to fill the silence.

Your yeah was for it being painful or yeah for dreaming?

 

[NodusTollens]

Your yeah was for it being painful or yeah for dreaming?

It was more a realization, I don't often think about the shift in myself since my last string of attempts. It was hard to think about & put into words.

 

[the-exit-plan]

after my od attempt i woke up so beyond disappointed..and realized i had to go to work that day.

so i got out of bed, walking around like a drugged gorilla, all stooped and laggy arms and shuffle feet.

my stomach was v sensitive for a week afterwards

and i couldn't tell anyone—though i did and it was taken as a joke.

 

[Darknessallaround]

How lonely is it after you wake up from a suicide attempt and realise you can't tell anyone? :(

It's one of the worst experiences in the world, knowing you finally made up your mind to take the biggest decision you could possibly take and for whatever reason it failed, and you are left with the aftermath and all the associated crap that goes with it.

If you are fortunate enough not to have been found and taken to hospital, you are just on your own with your thoughts and possible physical discomfort and nowhere to go with it, no one to share it with.

I'm sorry if this has happened to you.

 

[Deleted member 23726]

W

It was more a realization, I don't often think about the shift in myself since my last string of attempts. It was hard to think about & put into words.

What did you realize? Share your thoughts with me if thats okay