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ixkitty

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Aug 15, 2020
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I came to a realization today. My whole life is based off of fear. I'm afraid of disappointing people so I suffer. I am afraid of saying no at work so they take advantage of me. I'm afraid of taking my life into my own hands. I am literally living in fear. I really don't like it. I'm afraid of living and I'm afraid of dying. It's quite frustrating. I'm trapped.
 
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I came to a realization today. My whole life is based off of fear. I'm afraid of disappointing people so I suffer. I am afraid of saying no at work so they take advantage of me. I'm afraid of taking my life into my own hands. I am literally living in fear. I really don't like it. I'm afraid of living and I'm afraid of dying. It's quite frustrating. I'm trapped.
Sending you a virtual hug
 
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i can relate to that very well. especially the fear of both life and death—what kind of sick game is this world playing? i don't want to be here anymore, but i'm afraid of leaving. this world is godless, without a doubt, for putting us in this twisted limbo. but at least we're not alone...
 
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Could've wrote this myself. I feel this about my anxiety, constantly on edge, in panic. Trapped feels the like right word. So so many hugs.
 
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I could really relate to this a lot. My actual mental diagnosis is based on fear. Rather not name it in the open, I feel ashamed of it.
As far as the fear playing my actions, it happens constantly. Fear of the unknown. Fear of failure. Fear of being the person I feared the most.
Stuff like that. I am also sending a virtual hug! I hope you manage to get past it... Somehow. Someday.
Wishing all the best!
 
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I totally relate to this myself.. Especially the " saying no " at work or.. Wherever. I Fckn hate it,. Been told a few times that I'm just a people pleaser. Very bad place to be stuck in.

I've heard the phrase " Life on life's terms ". In AA and IOP mtgs I currently attend. That's how I pretty much describe my current struggles,. Which a Lot of is fear driven.

I wish you the best,. Hope it works out in due time.
 
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ixkitty

ixkitty

Let me be Selfish, just this once.
Aug 15, 2020
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i can relate to that very well. especially the fear of both life and death—what kind of sick game is this world playing? i don't want to be here anymore, but i'm afraid of leaving. this world is godless, without a doubt, for putting us in this twisted limbo. but at least we're not alone...
I actually find a bit of comfort knowing I'm not the only one. I really thought I was
Could've wrote this myself. I feel this about my anxiety, constantly on edge, in panic. Trapped feels the like right word. So so many hugs.
And many hugs to you as well
I could really relate to this a lot. My actual mental diagnosis is based on fear. Rather not name it in the open, I feel ashamed of it.
As far as the fear playing my actions, it happens constantly. Fear of the unknown. Fear of failure. Fear of being the person I feared the most.
Stuff like that. I am also sending a virtual hug! I hope you manage to get past it... Somehow. Someday.
Wishing all the best!
Wait hold up there's a mental diagnosis just based on fear? I'm going to Google this .. - best of luck to you !
I totally relate to this myself.. Especially the " saying no " at work or.. Wherever. I Fckn hate it,. Been told a few times that I'm just a people pleaser. Very bad place to be stuck in.

I've heard the phrase " Life on life's terms ". In AA and IOP mtgs I currently attend. That's how I pretty much describe my current struggles,. Which a Lot of is fear driven.

I wish you the best,. Hope it works out in due time.
Fear is a huge issue .. I've never actually heard that term. Thank you for sharing
 
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