Dino_flower
BiliBiliBoo
- Jan 17, 2023
- 10
This is getting harder and harder. I wish to rip myself into shreds the moment I catch a glimpse of myself in a mirror. People blatantly lie about personality mattering more and then choose the most attractive person in the room without a second thought. I'm sick and tired of trying so hard to look good that I just want to take a knife and carve out my body and face the way I want to. I hit the gym now and then, take good care of my hygiene, properly dress up for any event but still look like a rotting corpse. Just a heads up, nobody has ever felt romantically attracted to me, my whole life. Never. I used to try being kind to people, but my face always stood in the way. I didn't have a choice but to choose apathy at the end, there was no point in helping others when I couldn't help myself. I just wish everyone was born equally pretty, I really wish life was fair, but it's not. Everyone around me dislikes me for God knows what reason, although, I would credit that mostly to my looks. I just wish I could be loved, like all those beautiful women who have people falling head-over-heels for them, throwing roses and love at them, making them feel wanted and desirable unlike us crippling ugly people who are just born to suffer. I hate being this pessimistic but I think I've had enough.