Literally can't get death off my mind

[uniqueusername987]

Who else struggled with this? I wouldn't have even thought it was possible but it feels like I can't go 10 min without daydreaming about my method. It's so hard to focus on anything else.

 

[thebookofdisquiet.]

I understand, I wake up and go to sleep and my first and last thought is a revision of my plan.

 

[アホペンギン]

I struggle with this but I don't necessarily think of it as a bad thing, I want to be very sure about my plan and make sure everything is good but just daydreaming about suicide in general is one of the only things that I can focus on. I can't stop…

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always wishing for the true relief of non-existence but I see death as something comforting, the thought of being dead comforts me so much. In my case wanting to cease existing will always feel like the only logical response to being trapped in this cruel and meaningless existence, my thoughts of suicide aren't the problem or what I struggle with, the problem lies in the terrible mistake that is existence.