WorthlessTrash
Worthless
- Apr 19, 2022
- 2,407
I am honestly worried that I won't be able to go through with CTBing, and I'll be stuck either meandering in life, or settling for coping with a life that is far from ideal. It bothers me. I have no motivation to do anything, no interest in hobbies, no interest in relationships, no interest in sex (not that I could get any even if I tried). I am stuck in a perpetual state of eat, sleep and sasu with watching YouTube, listening to music and mindlessly playing various games online, which doesn't even get me pleasure.
The very thought of what it'd be like to have been born and raised female and the sight of these attractive cis women depress me to no end. Who knew it would come down to a 50% chance for me to be completely miserable.
The fear of what comes after death, guilt and laziness all contribute me to being in limbo.
I need out, but I don't know if I will ever be able to go through with it...
The very thought of what it'd be like to have been born and raised female and the sight of these attractive cis women depress me to no end. Who knew it would come down to a 50% chance for me to be completely miserable.
The fear of what comes after death, guilt and laziness all contribute me to being in limbo.
I need out, but I don't know if I will ever be able to go through with it...