DeathIsTheWayOut99
Warlock
- Jun 6, 2020
- 798
That is me in a nutshell. I want to vent, so please don't interject with "thats not true" or anything positive
while I appreciate the sentiment, it is not what I need right now
Anyways, my brother has been abusing me as of late
I plan to have a family meeting to address his behavior towards me to my father (mom died so dont even ask)
Anyways, he lashes out at me and my dad. I believe our moms passing along with my dads abuse has been affecting him
My dad failed in this department, however he has had to be a single parents all at once and is also a nurse during this pandemic
Its been bad and my brother is walking ball of rage. And of course I am usually the target
All my life I have been a target. Moments like this suicide feels like a good thing
Impulsive suicide seems to not go so well though
I always thought of jumping off a bridge, however I dont want to think about water going into my lungs. But.....meh
who cares right? nobody did
Ever since I was abused at home and bullied in school, I realized nobody cares
Again, do not give any words of encouragement. This world has hurt me enough and I made up my mind
I am done
while I appreciate the sentiment, it is not what I need right now
Anyways, my brother has been abusing me as of late
I plan to have a family meeting to address his behavior towards me to my father (mom died so dont even ask)
Anyways, he lashes out at me and my dad. I believe our moms passing along with my dads abuse has been affecting him
My dad failed in this department, however he has had to be a single parents all at once and is also a nurse during this pandemic
Its been bad and my brother is walking ball of rage. And of course I am usually the target
All my life I have been a target. Moments like this suicide feels like a good thing
Impulsive suicide seems to not go so well though
I always thought of jumping off a bridge, however I dont want to think about water going into my lungs. But.....meh
who cares right? nobody did
Ever since I was abused at home and bullied in school, I realized nobody cares
Again, do not give any words of encouragement. This world has hurt me enough and I made up my mind
I am done