Life with IBS is not worth living.

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

I'm sitting here trying to work, but I can't concentrate because it feels like I'm on the verge of having uncontrollable diarrhea. And if I go to the bathroom, I can't go, and it just makes my intestines burn. There is no relief. Is this really my life now? I used to be healthy, and I was mostly miserable even then. Now I'm borderline incontinent, and I'm supposed to just accept it and live for decades in a state of permanent food poisoning? My body yearns for death. It punishes me for staying alive. If I was meant to be alive, I would be able to eat food without causing horrible pain and discomfort. Why am I still alive? Why do I continue to punish myself by eating and drinking, when my body resents life itself? I need to die, I fucking need to, I can't take this pain and there is no other way out. No cure, no relief, no joy, no love, no adventure, no hope. Just endless fucking pain until I die.

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

I understand your pain. I have Ulcerative Colitis and IBS. The mornings are the worst, and when I'm really stressed out, and certain food/drinks.

IBS symptoms can be reduced with a change in diet and lifestyle. Look at your stress levels, your caffeine intake, how much spicy food you eat, what beverages you are drinking. There are many things that can trigger it and you don't even realise.

I had really severe IBS like yourself, until I looked at my diet and stress levels. Yeah, stress levels can't be controlled but diet can.

If this doesn't ease, especially with reducing stress levels and certain foods/drinks, another trip to the doctors is always worth it. This can get better. It isn't something you should just live with, that isn't fair. It isn't worth killing yourself over either

Have you actually had any tests done or have doctors simply brushed it off as IBS? Because I had the consant shits, even blood in my stool came back 'normal', so I demanded to be referred to the hospital for tests. It's a camera test, up the bum. Really simple and they can find inflammation while there. I was diagnosed straight away with Ulcerative Colitis, and there are several forms of Colitis.

If you haven't actually had tests done, I'd get that sorted.

I wish you the best

 

[J&L383]

Agree, don't give up hope, there are many options for treatment. And maybe you haven't had a good diagnosis yet.

But I can relate to what you're going through with having had similar circumstances. (And continue to have). For every person there's a limit to what we are capable of enduring from our physical bodies. (I don't believe that the continuingation of life is paramount, no matter what the burden, but that's just me.)

 

[FuneralCry]

That sounds really dreadful, it's so cruel how people suffer so much in this existence. But anyway I wish you the best.

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

I understand your pain. I have Ulcerative Colitis and IBS. The mornings are the worst, and when I'm really stressed out, and certain food/drinks.

IBS symptoms can be reduced with a change in diet and lifestyle. Look at your stress levels, your caffeine intake, how much spicy food you eat, what beverages you are drinking. There are many things that can trigger it and you don't even realise.

I had really severe IBS like yourself, until I looked at my diet and stress levels. Yeah, stress levels can't be controlled but diet can.

If this doesn't ease, especially with reducing stress levels and certain foods/drinks, another trip to the doctors is always worth it. This can get better. It isn't something you should just live with, that isn't fair. It isn't worth killing yourself over either

Have you actually had any tests done or have doctors simply brushed it off as IBS? Because I had the consant shits, even blood in my stool came back 'normal', so I demanded to be referred to the hospital for tests. It's a camera test, up the bum. Really simple and they can find inflammation while there. I was diagnosed straight away with Ulcerative Colitis, and there are several forms of Colitis.

I'd you haven't actually had tests done, I'd get that sorted.

I wish you the best

Thank you for the thoughtful reply. The truth is that my IBS isn't even particularly severe, certainly tame compared to dealing with both IBS and UC like you. I haven't had a colonoscopy like you did, but I'm totally certain what I have is just IBS and not UC or Crohn's, since my symptoms don't match with either of those diseases.

Thank you so much for the encouragement, I still do have hope for a better life with less symptoms, but whenever my symptoms flare up I have a tendency to go straight to being suicidal, since I already had depression even before getting IBS too (probably they're linked).

Since I got diagnosed I've been doing the low-FODMAP diet, which helps a lot. It's very restrictive, but it's worth it to bring my symptoms down to me being able to function.

 

[Bear1234]

Hi Friend, I understand health issues can be terrible and make you want to CTB. Im right there with ya. But wanted to suggest something, Amitriptyline is a drug that is prescribed at a low dose of 10mg-25mg for IBS and bladder issues - its an anti depressant and a nerve pain medication. Ask your primary to prescribe this to you and give it a shot before you give up completely <3 please try this

 

[MyTimeIsUp]

Thank you for the thoughtful reply. The truth is that my IBS isn't even particularly severe, certainly tame compared to dealing with both IBS and UC like you. I haven't had a colonoscopy like you did, but I'm totally certain what I have is just IBS and not UC or Crohn's, since my symptoms don't match with either of those diseases.

Thank you so much for the encouragement, I still do have hope for a better life with less symptoms, but whenever my symptoms flare up I have a tendency to go straight to being suicidal, since I already had depression even before getting IBS too (probably they're linked).

Since I got diagnosed I've been doing the low-FODMAP diet, which helps a lot. It's very restrictive, but it's worth it to bring my symptoms down to me being able to function.

It was a flexisigmoidoscopy which is different to a colonoscopy (I've had those too, of course). It's way less invasive than a colonoscopy, no horrible prep etc.

So when inflammation is in other areas such as the rectum, the symptoms are different, and they can be: NO blood, constipation, and something called 'overflow', essentially that is constipation and then the shits. Constipation is a big factor. That is called Ulcerative Proctitis. Essentially, it means inflammation in the rectum. I had previous higher up flares, hence where Ulcerative Colitis came from. Just letting you know, because often symptoms can appear as something worse than they are, or not as bad as they are

I honestly think you need to get this looked at. Even if a doctor gives you something to ease symptoms. Totally your choice, but things often get misdiagnosed or ignored etc, when people are suffering. You shouldn't suffer in silence.

We're here for you

I hope it eases x

P.S IBS and depression are linked, 100% - always worth keeping an eye on though (IBS)

 

[Necrosis]

My partner used to have horribly painful IBS and has been admitted over this. It's only been a couple years since it's peak but now he manages it so much better, the restrictions don't seem so terrible after experimenting with his own body. He hasn't gotten treatment for it, but stress definitley was linked.

Seeing how drastic the recovery can be just from diet change and a less stressful environment is amazing. You should never lose hope! The more you record your habits and track your symptoms along with them, the faster you can recover.

IBS is more than "my tummy hurts" and everyone handles it differently. There are people who understand how terrible it can be, your problems and feelings over them shouldn't be dismissed. A healthy mind makes a healthy body, try to avoid the pit of despair or your stomach might mirror it ;,P <3 Hope you make quick progress with your condition

 

[zengiraffe]

I relate to you a lot. Depressed all of my life, wanted to kill myself. Got a chronic gastrointestinal disease in my late 20s and my suicidality went up 1000%, but the disease was so bad at first that I couldn't take care of myself and had to move in back with my parents who had me under their constant watch. I was livid I hadn't killed myself earlier. It took me a few years to recover and I finally moved back out. The first thing I did in my new place was get a shotgun. If my health ever takes a nosedive again I now have a secured exit strategy, and don't have to go through that nightmare ever again.

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

Hi Friend, I understand health issues can be terrible and make you want to CTB. Im right there with ya. But wanted to suggest something, Amitriptyline is a drug that is prescribed at a low dose of 10mg-25mg for IBS and bladder issues - its an anti depressant and a nerve pain medication. Ask your primary to prescribe this to you and give it a shot before you give up completely <3 please try this

Funny you say that, I actually already take that after my doctor prescribed it. I think it helps a lot, but I still have symptoms unfortunately.

 

[Chronicallyunwell]

I relate to you a lot. Depressed all of my life, wanted to kill myself. Got a chronic gastrointestinal disease in my late 20s and my suicidality went up 1000%, but the disease was so bad at first that I couldn't take care of myself and had to move in back with my parents who had me under their constant watch. I was livid I hadn't killed myself earlier. It took me a few years to recover and I finally moved back out. The first thing I did in my new place was get a shotgun. If my health ever takes a nosedive again I now have a secured exit strategy, and don't have to go through that nightmare ever again.

Im so jealous you can access a gun. I'm suffering intolerable physical pain and can't access a way out.

 

[Bear1234]

Funny you say that, I actually already take that after my doctor prescribed it. I think it helps a lot, but I still have symptoms unfortunately.

Sorry :( that is so incredibly frustrating, Did they already test you for SIBO potentially? since you are following the low-fodmap diet. Maybe rifaximin could help?

I relate to you a lot. Depressed all of my life, wanted to kill myself. Got a chronic gastrointestinal disease in my late 20s and my suicidality went up 1000%, but the disease was so bad at first that I couldn't take care of myself and had to move in back with my parents who had me under their constant watch. I was livid I hadn't killed myself earlier. It took me a few years to recover and I finally moved back out. The first thing I did in my new place was get a shotgun. If my health ever takes a nosedive again I now have a secured exit strategy, and don't have to go through that nightmare ever again.

I relate, im dealing with a chronic health issue right now and im thinking why the fuck didn't I buy a gun when I was good. Similar to you, I've moved back home with my parents. Its a shit show truthfully but I got my SN coming and already have AE so if I really need to exit, I will. Hoping miracles or some medication actually hits me right

 

[Kali_Yuga13]

IBS is awful. It's driven me to drug use and so much focus on food and diets to the point of borderline eating disorder. For me, it got much better when I broke the spell of gaslighting from my father. I think it was a manifestation of ,my body screaming to get away from person that posed a great danger but my mind couldn't accept. I'm not sure if you have any toxic people in your life but it might be worth assessing.

 

[destinationlosangel]

I'm sitting here trying to work, but I can't concentrate because it feels like I'm on the verge of having uncontrollable diarrhea. And if I go to the bathroom, I can't go, and it just makes my intestines burn. There is no relief. Is this really my life now? I used to be healthy, and I was mostly miserable even then. Now I'm borderline incontinent, and I'm supposed to just accept it and live for decades in a state of permanent food poisoning? My body yearns for death. It punishes me for staying alive. If I was meant to be alive, I would be able to eat food without causing horrible pain and discomfort. Why am I still alive? Why do I continue to punish myself by eating and drinking, when my body resents life itself? I need to die, I fucking need to, I can't take this pain and there is no other way out. No cure, no relief, no joy, no love, no adventure, no hope. Just endless fucking pain until I die.

Hey I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with this. Was there any event that triggered ur IBS? any particular foods or something traumatic that set it off even? Few types of IBS could be muscular even, or a gut issue that could take upto a year to heal. Important thing is trying to figure out whats causing it. I understand your pain as I too am dealing with some rare health issues. Health is wealth

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

Hey I'm so sorry that you're having to deal with this. Was there any event that triggered ur IBS? any particular foods or something traumatic that set it off even? Few types of IBS could be muscular even, or a gut issue that could take upto a year to heal. Important thing is trying to figure out whats causing it. I understand your pain as I too am dealing with some rare health issues. Health is wealth

I don't know if there was a specific cause. I did travel to a developing country before my IBS developed, but I didn't experience any food poisoning on the trip and symptoms didn't develop until 4 months after my return, so maybe it is unrelated. I think it might just be a physical manifestation of nearly a decade of extreme depression and anxiety.

 

[divinemistress36]

Depression affects the digestive symptom a lot

I don't know if there was a specific cause. I did travel to a developing country before my IBS developed, but I didn't experience any food poisoning on the trip and symptoms didn't develop until 4 months after my return, so maybe it is unrelated. I think it might just be a physical manifestation of nearly a decade of extreme depression and anxiety.

 

[moonoverthesea]

I have SIBO, so I think I can really relate. Everything hurts, my general health has taken a nosedive since this shit began (I keep getting colds, COVID thrice...). I have less and less autonomy, yet the world demands that I go on as if nothing is happening.

For me the worst part is how little doctors seem to get about how much these diseases impact our life. I took them more than a year to believe my pain, as they kept telling me it was all in my head. Now I have diagnoses, but still there is no rush in finding something that helps the pain for real and they mostly tell me to just deal with it. Everything hurts, everyday, and there is no end in sight. My own body is failing, and I feel like my soul (?) is simply growing more and more tired of living in this body.

 

[benjamind2020]

The most infuriating thing is when you "try" to go, because you have a feeling that you might need to go during an hour-long car trip or something, and you strain and try hard, and you do go but after you've cleaned up you realise the relief is not complete. Then, while you're in the car, after a while, you "suddenly" need to go and you find yourself struggling to keep from shitting yourself. So bloody infuriating that you want to ram a running drill up your arse.

 

[toplaygames202212]

The most infuriating thing is when you "try" to go, because you have a feeling that you might need to go during an hour-long car trip or something, and you strain and try hard, and you do go but after you've cleaned up you realise the relief is not complete. Then, while you're in the car, after a while, you "suddenly" need to go and you find yourself struggling to keep from shitting yourself. So bloody infuriating that you want to ram a running drill up your arse.

That's soooooo fucking true. I really miss the feeling of complete bowl movement. No matter how many times a go, there will always be some stool left in my rectum and it can create pressure anytime so can't even go out in peace. And that feeling of stool in rectum is really wierd and uncomfortable

 

[zxcvb]

I'm so sorry to read about your situation. I also have IBS. Have you heard of the low fodmaps diet? It might help.

 

[toplaygames202212]

I'm so sorry to read about your situation. I also have IBS. Have you heard of the low fodmaps diet? It might help.

Same here

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I'm sitting here trying to work, but I can't concentrate because it feels like I'm on the verge of having uncontrollable diarrhea. And if I go to the bathroom, I can't go, and it just makes my intestines burn. There is no relief. Is this really my life now? I used to be healthy, and I was mostly miserable even then. Now I'm borderline incontinent, and I'm supposed to just accept it and live for decades in a state of permanent food poisoning? My body yearns for death. It punishes me for staying alive. If I was meant to be alive, I would be able to eat food without causing horrible pain and discomfort. Why am I still alive? Why do I continue to punish myself by eating and drinking, when my body resents life itself? I need to die, I fucking need to, I can't take this pain and there is no other way out. No cure, no relief, no joy, no love, no adventure, no hope. Just endless fucking pain until I die.

I resonate so much with this, I am allergic to all foods at least all plant based foods, vegetables, fruits, nuts etc. including shellfish, most fish I guess but not certain if all so I know where you are coming from also that there seems to be no cure for these problems however I am about to try transitioning into The Lion Diet it has helped a lot of other people with their health problems both auto immune illnesses like me but also other bodily illnesses so if you still have a spark of hope and willpower left I think it would be something to try I will at least I don´t know if it will work at all I just wanted to put it out there since I know how horrible it is to suffer from food, something that we should be able to enjoy like everyone else or at the very least not suffer from so if you´re interested look up Mikhaila Peterson.

 

[qualityOV3Rquantity]

I resonate so much with this, I am allergic to all foods at least all plant based foods, vegetables, fruits, nuts etc. including shellfish, most fish I guess but not certain if all so I know where you are coming from also that there seems to be no cure for these problems however I am about to try transitioning into The Lion Diet it has helped a lot of other people with their health problems both auto immune illnesses like me but also other bodily illnesses so if you still have a spark of hope and willpower left I think it would be something to try I will at least I don´t know if it will work at all I just wanted to put it out there since I know how horrible it is to suffer from food, something that we should be able to enjoy like everyone else or at the very least not suffer from so if you´re interested look up Mikhaila Peterson.

Yes,' I've heard of the lion diet. It sounds kind of crazy, but I promised myself that I'll try it before I off myself. I guess if I'm going to kill myself then I really have nothing to lose. Thanks for the suggestion, and I hope you find relief from your ailment!!

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yes,' I've heard of the lion diet. It sounds kind of crazy, but I promised myself that I'll try it before I off myself. I guess if I'm going to kill myself then I really have nothing to lose. Thanks for the suggestion, and I hope you find relief from your ailment!!

Would be awesome if it worked for you but I understand if you don´t have anymore energy to try such a hard diet, I also doubt I can even get started because at this moment my throat is so tight and dry because of food allergies so it restrict my breathing even that is new just another example of how life only gets worse. So hard to start meat only diet when my throat is too closed up to get it down unlike carbs that can be soft and mushy.

Maybe I should try and fast for a day and try meat then I would love for the diet to work since I try to better and have some hobbies I wanna start but it´s impossible when being tortured by my own body which you know all too well unfortunately.