Lra888
Enlightened
- Sep 30, 2018
- 1,140
It's surreal going through the motions of life after making the descision to die. Everything seems pointless and tedious. Waking up, eating, selecting an outfit, laundry, hygiene, cleaning. Don't enjoy a fucking thing. I went out for groceries and thought about how fucked up it is that I must feed my body to make it through the preparation until I finally act. What a bizarre experience all of this is.
Not a single human being is aware of my reality. If anyone knew what I was thinking I would be locked up. Sad really. No one can accept that some of us can no longer tolerate pain, illness, tragedy, poverty, traumatic irreversible negative situations day after day forever.
Right now thousands of people are experiencing this. Motivated and energetic to prepare for the end. Feeling so enthusiastic to finally take control of the awful situation and having the ability to be free. Going to the store to purchase rope. Collecting pills. Waiting for N to arrive in the mail. Setting up bitcoin. Buying heroin. Testing firearms. Researching methods. Writing goodbye notes. Disposing of possessions. Etc.
Not a single human being is aware of my reality. If anyone knew what I was thinking I would be locked up. Sad really. No one can accept that some of us can no longer tolerate pain, illness, tragedy, poverty, traumatic irreversible negative situations day after day forever.
Right now thousands of people are experiencing this. Motivated and energetic to prepare for the end. Feeling so enthusiastic to finally take control of the awful situation and having the ability to be free. Going to the store to purchase rope. Collecting pills. Waiting for N to arrive in the mail. Setting up bitcoin. Buying heroin. Testing firearms. Researching methods. Writing goodbye notes. Disposing of possessions. Etc.
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