Life Update.

[10000DaysTooMany]

I just want to get my current thoughts out. I'm not sure if this is the right place because I still desperately want to CTB. I've put together everything for an SN attempt and typed up a note. I've been very honest with my best friends and doctor about how I feel and what I've been planning. For my best friends I'm trying antidepressants again, I've been on bupropion for about a week now. In a couple months a friend of mine is moving in with me and a few months from then we're moving back to my home city.

It's soon going to be a lot harder to go through with my plan but I guess if I decide to I can always get a hotel room for a night. I'm not sure if I'll start feeling better, I've dealt with depression for a long time. But at the moment I'm doing my best to stay here.

 

[Coldpizza22]

Your friend counts on you, don't let them down. Good luck

 

[BlankZeroNone]

It's admirable that you're putting in the effort to stay. You seem like a thoughtful and considerate person - I'm certain that you'll be able to make the right decision in the future.

 

[Secrets1]

It's admirable that you're putting in the effort to stay. You seem like a thoughtful and considerate person - I'm certain that you'll be able to make the right decision in the future.

+1 to this. Wishing you the best. On a side note, everyone is different but when I was shuffled through antidepressants a decade ago and treatment resistant to most bupropion was the 1 that actually worked.

 

[whywere]

You are a thoughtful, kind, warm and ever so wonderful soul. Reading your post. over and over, made me acknowledge just how much not only the world but I need you here.

It seems that in the everyday world it is eat or be eaten, but on SS and folks like you, it reinforces the belief in me that we are doing great.

I wish for you to have the most wonderful weekend filled with sunny blue skies, fields of lovely flowers and the knowledge that YOU are such a wonderful soul, makes me cry with happiness.

Walter

 

[juxtajuno]

I just want to get my current thoughts out. I'm not sure if this is the right place because I still desperately want to CTB. I've put together everything for an SN attempt and typed up a note. I've been very honest with my best friends and doctor about how I feel and what I've been planning. For my best friends I'm trying antidepressants again, I've been on bupropion for about a week now. In a couple months a friend of mine is moving in with me and a few months from then we're moving back to my home city.

It's soon going to be a lot harder to go through with my plan but I guess if I decide to I can always get a hotel room for a night. I'm not sure if I'll start feeling better, I've dealt with depression for a long time. But at the moment I'm doing my best to stay here.

i'm so proud of you for staying with us. it takes a lot of courage and resolve to keep going when things seem so hopeless. you seem like such a kind and warm soul, i'm sure your friends feel very lucky to have you around. keep up with your antidepressants, i know they take a little while to kick in. don't give up! there's always more treatment options if bupropion doesn't work. i hope you and your friend do well together. if you can't stay for yourself, stay for them. they love you very much and want what's best for you. i wish you the best of luck in whatever decision you make. you deserve the best. <33

 

[lookingforsanctuary]

Wow it's amazing you've been able to be so honest with everyone and that you're fighting so hard to stay even when you really want to go. I hope this hard work all pays off and you find happiness in life.