Ilostmytoast
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- May 18, 2024
- 4
I'd vent my heart out but honestly I'm just too tired and my mind is worn down after barely or not eating well
Today I tried several ways to do partial hanging and since I had a regular rope I needed smth around my neck so I wasn't caught if I lived
And I'm not sure if that's preventing me from hanging it wasn't thick I did feel the rope tight on my neck even hitting windpipe I believe? (Sorry I'm unsure of what I exactly hit)
There's something else though two things
One being how does one hang during partial hanging like I understand you out as much pressure as you can to your neck but that's not what I mean
Like do you just fall right down to put pressure or just slowly crouch down I'm sorry if that's a dumb question but I don't know I did a chair and sat on it cause I was nervous I would do it wrong though looking back at it that wouldn't even work but oh well
As for the second thing
How does one get over dying alone like I don't mind it
But it does get to me when I'm not in the process of hanging like during planning I realise I'm dying alone in a dark space in my closet
And that's kind of stopping me from proceeding for some reason
I know the default answer is to not kill yourself then but it's something I want to do I don't have anybody nor am I Important
Ya
Anyways sorry for wasting your time and sorry for the lack of punctuation and possible errors I'm just dumb maybe i don't know
Today I tried several ways to do partial hanging and since I had a regular rope I needed smth around my neck so I wasn't caught if I lived
And I'm not sure if that's preventing me from hanging it wasn't thick I did feel the rope tight on my neck even hitting windpipe I believe? (Sorry I'm unsure of what I exactly hit)
There's something else though two things
One being how does one hang during partial hanging like I understand you out as much pressure as you can to your neck but that's not what I mean
Like do you just fall right down to put pressure or just slowly crouch down I'm sorry if that's a dumb question but I don't know I did a chair and sat on it cause I was nervous I would do it wrong though looking back at it that wouldn't even work but oh well
As for the second thing
How does one get over dying alone like I don't mind it
But it does get to me when I'm not in the process of hanging like during planning I realise I'm dying alone in a dark space in my closet
And that's kind of stopping me from proceeding for some reason
I know the default answer is to not kill yourself then but it's something I want to do I don't have anybody nor am I Important
Ya
Anyways sorry for wasting your time and sorry for the lack of punctuation and possible errors I'm just dumb maybe i don't know
