RedDEE

RedDEE

Life sucks and then you die.
May 10, 2019
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Here's my rant. If you're suicidal, this will probably make you more suicidal. I'm not telling you not to read it, just a fair warning.

I'm 30 years old, and I've spent my entire adult life seeking "the answer". Enlightenment, nirvana, wisdom. I've studied religion extensively, and have tripped on psychedelics and just generally done a mind boggling royal metric fuckton of drugs. Because I have been driven by the most purest, and strongest of desires, the grand desire that exceeds all others - the desire for peace.

All this wisdom seeking has led me to the highest wisdom attainable. There is knowledge I don't possess, such as how a jet plane engine functions. But when it comes to knowledge pertaining to the wisdom of the meaning of life and death - I have it all. I wish I didn't know, I wish I never started down the path of understanding the nature of reality and what life means.

Here's what it means. Life and death are one and the same. We are living a life of living death. You see, when you say "I wish I was dead", what you really mean is "I wish I wasn't dead anymore." Because you're already dead. What you mean to say is you wish you would cease to exist.

It is only when you're alive that you can perceive death. If you walk down the road, and see a dead rabbit, you can perceive that death. You see it, smell it - sense it in every way. After you die The Final Death, you no longer have the mental capacity to perceive death, because you have no mind, because you have no brain cause you're gone. There's just nothing, which is a little inaccurate to state, because when you say there "is" nothing, you're attributing the state of nothing with existence.

So it is more accurate to state that after your brain ceases to function, all senses cease, and thus your perception and conciousness cease to exist - then there is not anything anymore. It won't go all black. It won't be anything.

Which sounds a little scary. Or a lot scary. And a little sad. It's not. When you are gone, that is what peace is. In life you have ups and downs, joy and sadness. After you die, there will be neither. There won't be happiness there, but that's a good thing. Happiness is a tool of evil. Good things only happen to get ripped away, so you will be sad. Peace is better than happiness. Silence is better than sound. Blindness is better than sight.

It's a good thing that life sucks, and it's only suffering. If life were good, and you were always happy all the time, the end of your life would be a sad thing. It would be sad if you lived a perfect life and then it had to end. But the reality is life is bad, and that's good, because the end of it means your suffering stops forever, and that's perfect.

I'm not preaching suicide. Just truth as I have verified it as being with my own eyes. I don't know anyone with a good life or anyone that is happy for very long. I just see death alive, in all it's unmercifulness and unfairness - and beauty. If I could destroy the universe, and by pressing a button give the whole world and all life in it a merciful death with no pain or fear, I would.

We exist to suffer. Life dissapoints us, abuses us, rapes us, and in the end, murders us. It's tragedy. We live each moment in fear, and die little deaths each day, and if we're unlucky, like me, live to watch our heart wither and turn completely cold.

Life sucks and then you die - the end.
 
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DyslexicForeigner

DyslexicForeigner

Student
Dec 27, 2018
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Our species were created by the Source (or God if you're a religious person) just for the sake of it's entertainment! Dinasours extinction happened on purpose because they were such a boring creature, and we are the opposite of that: we are such an interesting creature!
 
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faust

faust

lost among the stars
Jan 26, 2020
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I would like to add.
When we die, we are like returning back, to the homeland, the place where we never existed and will never exist.
All we do remember is not the life itself but different moments. Some are nice, some are bad.
Just imagine, we are struggling years to experience moments of bliss which will be in our mind.
When our mind is gone, all our memories are gone, like everything that happened before never mattered.
Like all our existence is vain.
The place where we die may become a wet ground. Then the grass will appear and the early flowers, but they won't remind about us.
Only a gravestone will make some people recall that we lived years ago.
But nothing and no one is eternal. We have different experiences and after death they perish as will perish everything one day.
 
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5:45AM

5:45AM

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Mar 27, 2020
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I've talked to a lot of people on this subject and seen a fair few people on this forum that don't quite seem to grasp that oblivion would entail a complete cessation of experience, and not just seeing, hearing, and feeling nothing forever. Ever since I learned of that I've had a lot of skepticism about any kind of afterlife, I feel that people don't perceive their own bias, having only ever experienced existence, and asserting that it must go on forever.

OP you mention that you wish you never started down the path of enlightenment, would you rather be ignorant all your life and suffer everything dealt to you? Not judging as I've considered it and in the past might've preferred that.


Our species were created by the Source (or God if you're a religious person) just for the sake of it's entertainment! Dinasours extinction happened on purpose because they were such a boring creature, and we are the opposite of that: we are such an interesting creature!
I don't see a lot of bloody tooth-and-claw battles between 50-foot giants happening these days, I have to say I find drone strikes and corporations killing with/in the name of finance to be pretty lame in comparison.
 
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NotMeantForHere

NotMeantForHere

I want to go like Marilyn Monroe
Feb 6, 2020
156
Yea, you're right, this did make me more suicidal..
 
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BabyYoda

BabyYoda

F*ck this sh!t I'm out
Dec 30, 2019
552
Happiness is a tool of evil. Good things only happen to get ripped away, so you will be sad. Peace is better than happiness. Silence is better than sound. Blindness is better than sight.

I like this one. There was this post I found on social media that said "sometimes life takes away the good things to teach you how to let go" which is nothing but evidence that life is cruel, sadistic, abhorent, and inhumane. Honestly, if the sadness makes you forget the happy stuff and you're supposed to get over it cause it's in the past then might as well not experience happiness. I hate that life had to include the downs with the ups, I'm better off dead. I don't see the point of enjoying something only to be miserable when it is gone. If people are forced to learn how to let go, then why are they never okay with letting go of life?

When you're a kid, you learn through play. But when you grow older, you learn through pain. Sigh. Keep in mind that we live in a world where the rich and powerful don't give a shit about others and only care about themselves and the poor work so hard to make a living wage and are being treated like shit. Some people are just born with the easy life.
 
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