Life is so good

[OnMyLast Legs]

Just not for me. Does anyone else feel that way? I do not take an overall pessimistic or efilist/antinatalist view.

Oddly enough, there seems to be a switch that happens when you become suicidal. You might say more pessimistic things about how life and the world are awful before, when you feel stronger and healthier.

When suicidality comes you tend to idealize people and things and think you don't measure up. I'm thinking of all the beautiful things in the world that I can't or don't participate in anymore. All the people who became free through discipline, living the right way when they were young. I just wish I were one of them.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Imo life is bad in general

To me nothing is worth even 1 second of the worst pain

things they say i have to enjoy don't compare to something horrible like being skinned alive and left like that alive for days . Similar hells can happen if most of skin burned off in an accidental or on purpose fire . To me that's even worse as they can keep you alive for decades in nursing homes in that terrible state .As if watching an "enjoyable" click bait video or eating a sandwich were worth that hell

They can burn my body after I die and I won't feel a thing because i don't exist forever after my brain dies. The reason I can feel unbearable pain is only because I'm Alive and my brain can suffer unlimited excruciating pain : why is that so good?

For example. I tried holding my breath

After 60 seconds the pain started getting worse by a million times every second

I tried the most I could to push through the increasing pain and horrible feeling of suffocating

finally I couldn't tolerate the pain any longer. I had to breathe

I thought how horrible would it be if I couldn't breathe when I couldn't bear it any more: the pain would keep increasing a million times every second for another 5 minutes until I pass out

The brain can produce this kind of constant unbearable pain and worse not just for a second of 5 minutes but for hours days years . That to me is something very bad

 

[PI3.14]

I don't think life is all bad, if my life wasn't the way it's, I won't be on this forum.

Just like life can be great to someone, it can be a nightmare to someone else, it's all about luck.

 

[MrsT-800]

Yes, to me, life is beautiful. I so look forward to my coffee and newspaper every morning, I love the birds and their songs, to watch the streetlamps come on at night, to feel a perfect breeze, to lay down in my bed and look at the room I worked hard to make it beautiful. I love my life a lot, I have a good fortune in terms of my lifestyle, my work, etc. But it is just... at the end of it all, I am not meant for this, no matter what, the pain and sadness are pervasive and I will always end up back wanting to die. And I am a mostly happy person. It is just a deep, eternal sadness of the soul, that will never go away, so I must die

 

[YourLocalSadGirly]

The way I see life is something that's incredibly beautiful but humans have ruined it due to greed, selfishness, and shortsightedness. The world as it exists today isn't designed to uplift or support people in the way that it should. I see the beauty in the world but I don't want to participate in our society as it currently works.