SterileMoth
Who knows man
- Jul 9, 2020
- 74
Hey, it's been a while. I still don't really want to die, the thoughts just reoccuring again. It would be so much easier to not live, which I guess is kinda selfish. There's a lot of reasons to live. I'm just so overwhelmed and sad right now. I don't know how to do this, any of this. I have a growing suspicion that I may be on the spectrum somehow, but testing for that is expensive and even if I was assessed, will that really make such a difference? I don't know. Everything feels pointless and difficult. I want to live my life a certain way but have no idea how to get to that point, I don't know how to do anything, I'm not even good at asking for needed help. I'm fucking scared.