PenguinsAreCool
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- Aug 22, 2025
- 5
Been scratching at myself for hours trying to look for jobs that will be a good fit. But I always end up thinking how immature, selfish or childish I am.
I can't even get a simple job, I can't go to an interview without wanting to kill myself.
I havent slept all night, trying to fix my sleep schedule, but being up and thinking about money is so so demoralizing.
I wake up to do nothing, im a piece of nothing. Im a NEET living in their mom's basement, playing games and watching YouTube.
Ive lived a nothing life.
I can't even help my mom with her debt, let alone fix my debt either. Im useless. I dont know if I should kill myself or try to keep going. I know I have many people who care for me, and I dont want to leave them.. But feeling like a useless piece of crap really hurts. My heart hurts, its hard to breathe. I just wish I could disappear. I wish I didnt have to deal with these emotions. I hate it here.
Im trying to get better but its so so hard. I dont know if I can keep going.
Im rambling, my posts make no sense. Sorry. Everything gets jumbled when I try to type or write it out.
I can't even get a simple job, I can't go to an interview without wanting to kill myself.
I havent slept all night, trying to fix my sleep schedule, but being up and thinking about money is so so demoralizing.
I wake up to do nothing, im a piece of nothing. Im a NEET living in their mom's basement, playing games and watching YouTube.
Ive lived a nothing life.
I can't even help my mom with her debt, let alone fix my debt either. Im useless. I dont know if I should kill myself or try to keep going. I know I have many people who care for me, and I dont want to leave them.. But feeling like a useless piece of crap really hurts. My heart hurts, its hard to breathe. I just wish I could disappear. I wish I didnt have to deal with these emotions. I hate it here.
Im trying to get better but its so so hard. I dont know if I can keep going.
Im rambling, my posts make no sense. Sorry. Everything gets jumbled when I try to type or write it out.
