life, death and reality

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It's raining. You are drunk, in love, etc. Life feels surreal. Does it really exist? Why were you born to exist in times of internet? Of ctb speak? Why is this guy yhinking youre a troll becoz you dont accept his worldview? Why wasnt i born in Australia 90,000 years ago? I meet all these wonderful people(people are good, even with evidence to the contrary). Whichever way you look at it, life is good. Then you MUST kill yourself( I made a pact with myself, Ill never get white hair, get old,etc), I stick to my promises to myself, sometimes, I doubt i exist. I cant imagine myself dead or never existed, though common sense tells me otherwise, but seems we live firever, we havr alwsys existed