A_Breath_Away
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- Jan 21, 2026
- 30
Look, I'm tired. I've suffered with physical/mental ailments for years.
I know it's time, that this is for the best, but I'm having a hard time letting go of the things I enjoy.
I had a close-call a few months back and survived. At that time I was ready to go. I would've done anything to end it. Since then I've grown comfortable. And acquired a sense of normalcy. I'm not living but I'm still here.
Video Games, Movies, Music. I'll no longer be able to experience these things if I die.
It makes me sad. I try to remind myself of my past suffering. Why this needs to happen. I mean, it feels like an eventuality.
Some small part of me is holding out hope that things get better. But I know it probably won't.
And it could be a lot worse.
Hell, at least I have some options as far as how I go out atm. I'm afraid I'll get back to where I was and I won't anymore. I'll just have to jump or hang myself. Something I CAN'T bring myself to do.
I've been so sick for so long that it's all I know. Things can never be like it was when I was in my early 20's. I'm old now, I have serious health issues which I can't overcome.
But some part of me feels I should at least try you know? Either way, I die.
It'll be over. Whether I do it now or wait is up to me.
Why do y'all stay? How do you come to terms with letting go of life?
I know it's time, that this is for the best, but I'm having a hard time letting go of the things I enjoy.
I had a close-call a few months back and survived. At that time I was ready to go. I would've done anything to end it. Since then I've grown comfortable. And acquired a sense of normalcy. I'm not living but I'm still here.
Video Games, Movies, Music. I'll no longer be able to experience these things if I die.
It makes me sad. I try to remind myself of my past suffering. Why this needs to happen. I mean, it feels like an eventuality.
Some small part of me is holding out hope that things get better. But I know it probably won't.
And it could be a lot worse.
Hell, at least I have some options as far as how I go out atm. I'm afraid I'll get back to where I was and I won't anymore. I'll just have to jump or hang myself. Something I CAN'T bring myself to do.
I've been so sick for so long that it's all I know. Things can never be like it was when I was in my early 20's. I'm old now, I have serious health issues which I can't overcome.
But some part of me feels I should at least try you know? Either way, I die.
It'll be over. Whether I do it now or wait is up to me.
Why do y'all stay? How do you come to terms with letting go of life?
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