Do you mean by doing something to trigger a cop to want to do this? Another member commented that cops experience trauma too, and it's true. Their job is to keep others safe, including those who want to hurt themselves whether we like it or not. They can get in serious trouble. I personally wouldn't want to put one of them in that position.
They're (for the most part -- I don't know every officer personally) are wanting to help others like us and help us find supports -- even if we know that there's non for us, or even if we've tried. I know some of us would much rather someone else to "do the honors" as you say. I wouldn't be able to go into a deep sleep knowing before I left that another person is at risk. I would want to do it myself. This will sound dumb of me as I want to ctb but the thought of someone else doing this to me makes me feel a little nervous, though I'm not completely opposed to the idea if someone stood before me with a gun pointed my way that I'd turn away the opportunity.
So I assume that you mean ctb by gun. This being said, I don't think that this is the best method in general. Keep in mind, this is only my opinion. I'm not trying to sound harsh friend, I'm just seeing it from different views. Either way, I wish you peace with whichever decision you choose ❤ Pm me if you ever need to talk