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- Dec 20, 2019
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hey, gang.
by all means, i'm not even close to popular on this site. i've only been a member for a little over a month. despite my short time on here, i've met some pretty cool people and learned some really interesting new things. for those of you who haven't noticed, though (which is likely the majority of this site's population), i've been essentially m.i.a. for almost two weeks now. if you take a look at my activity from before these past two weeks, that's pretty unlike me. i used to post multiple times every day. to be honest, i spent hours on this site daily. but, a lot has been going on in life and while i am still struggling, i've realized that this website has only been perpetuating my ailing mental state.
this friday, i will be going to my first real mental health consultation. i've also started classes at my community college after being dismissed from my dream school and if i want to return to the latter this upcoming fall, i really need to stay extremely focused and keep my head high above water. because of this, i've decided that i am going self-ban myself from ss as soon as i'm a comfy ways into therapy. following my evaluation, i'll be diagnosed/re-diagnosed and treated accordingly. the day i will be leaving the site is sunday, march 1st, 2020. i've also canceled all plans of ctb, meaning i will not be carrying it out on either dates i've mentioned here on the forums (jan 31st, 2020, june 1st, 2020 and june 30th, 2020).
following my consultation, i'll be meeting up with a psychologist and a psychiatrist weekly. if my mental state improves, it'll become a bi-weekly event. then, once i consensually agree with both of these professionals that i feel better, i will be regarded as "cured" of all my mental illnesses (putting "cured" in parentheses because mental illness can't be fully cured, but well-managed). while attending therapy, i will also be medicated. i have never been medicated before, and i've always felt that it is the missing puzzle piece.
if therapy and medication don't work, i'll come back to the site and ask for an unban. however, this is unlikely. even if i still feel like shit after getting help, i'll be way too busy with school to wallow and drag my feet here. i really want to be readmitted to my dream school because that's where all my friends are. also, few colleges offer all the "artsy" majors at said school.
anyways, all this being said... i'm still here for roughly another month (unless i change my mind and leave sooner/stay longer). i just wanted to give this notice for some reason. i didn't want to disappear and leave anyone wondering what in the world happened to me. i know a lot of people who used to be active here have faded into oblivion and left users looking for answers. i didn't want to be like that. if anyone i've gotten to know here wants to be friends outside of ss, let me know. i probably won't give you any of my personal social media, but i might give you my discord. it depends on how close we were. i dunno. we'll see. i'm still pretty tentative.
i'll still be posting if i have free time and see a thread that piques my interest. i'll also be making one more thread like this on march 1st to update you guys and say goodbye.
so... yeah. thank you to this site and its creators, staff, frequent posters, top contributors and everyone in between or outside that spectrum. i don't know what i would've done without this site during such a tough time in my life. between missing my shitty ex and struggling with college issues, you guys were always here to listen to me bitch and vent. you guys always gave me advice and offered a hug or helping hand. it's lovely to know that there's a corner of the internet where people are so caring. as a matter of fact, it's beautiful.
i love y'all. take care.
until march 1st... i wish you peace, ss.
by all means, i'm not even close to popular on this site. i've only been a member for a little over a month. despite my short time on here, i've met some pretty cool people and learned some really interesting new things. for those of you who haven't noticed, though (which is likely the majority of this site's population), i've been essentially m.i.a. for almost two weeks now. if you take a look at my activity from before these past two weeks, that's pretty unlike me. i used to post multiple times every day. to be honest, i spent hours on this site daily. but, a lot has been going on in life and while i am still struggling, i've realized that this website has only been perpetuating my ailing mental state.
this friday, i will be going to my first real mental health consultation. i've also started classes at my community college after being dismissed from my dream school and if i want to return to the latter this upcoming fall, i really need to stay extremely focused and keep my head high above water. because of this, i've decided that i am going self-ban myself from ss as soon as i'm a comfy ways into therapy. following my evaluation, i'll be diagnosed/re-diagnosed and treated accordingly. the day i will be leaving the site is sunday, march 1st, 2020. i've also canceled all plans of ctb, meaning i will not be carrying it out on either dates i've mentioned here on the forums (jan 31st, 2020, june 1st, 2020 and june 30th, 2020).
following my consultation, i'll be meeting up with a psychologist and a psychiatrist weekly. if my mental state improves, it'll become a bi-weekly event. then, once i consensually agree with both of these professionals that i feel better, i will be regarded as "cured" of all my mental illnesses (putting "cured" in parentheses because mental illness can't be fully cured, but well-managed). while attending therapy, i will also be medicated. i have never been medicated before, and i've always felt that it is the missing puzzle piece.
if therapy and medication don't work, i'll come back to the site and ask for an unban. however, this is unlikely. even if i still feel like shit after getting help, i'll be way too busy with school to wallow and drag my feet here. i really want to be readmitted to my dream school because that's where all my friends are. also, few colleges offer all the "artsy" majors at said school.
anyways, all this being said... i'm still here for roughly another month (unless i change my mind and leave sooner/stay longer). i just wanted to give this notice for some reason. i didn't want to disappear and leave anyone wondering what in the world happened to me. i know a lot of people who used to be active here have faded into oblivion and left users looking for answers. i didn't want to be like that. if anyone i've gotten to know here wants to be friends outside of ss, let me know. i probably won't give you any of my personal social media, but i might give you my discord. it depends on how close we were. i dunno. we'll see. i'm still pretty tentative.
i'll still be posting if i have free time and see a thread that piques my interest. i'll also be making one more thread like this on march 1st to update you guys and say goodbye.
so... yeah. thank you to this site and its creators, staff, frequent posters, top contributors and everyone in between or outside that spectrum. i don't know what i would've done without this site during such a tough time in my life. between missing my shitty ex and struggling with college issues, you guys were always here to listen to me bitch and vent. you guys always gave me advice and offered a hug or helping hand. it's lovely to know that there's a corner of the internet where people are so caring. as a matter of fact, it's beautiful.
i love y'all. take care.
until march 1st... i wish you peace, ss.
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