enjoy

enjoy

Creature
Dec 20, 2019
337
hey, gang.

by all means, i'm not even close to popular on this site. i've only been a member for a little over a month. despite my short time on here, i've met some pretty cool people and learned some really interesting new things. for those of you who haven't noticed, though (which is likely the majority of this site's population), i've been essentially m.i.a. for almost two weeks now. if you take a look at my activity from before these past two weeks, that's pretty unlike me. i used to post multiple times every day. to be honest, i spent hours on this site daily. but, a lot has been going on in life and while i am still struggling, i've realized that this website has only been perpetuating my ailing mental state.

this friday, i will be going to my first real mental health consultation. i've also started classes at my community college after being dismissed from my dream school and if i want to return to the latter this upcoming fall, i really need to stay extremely focused and keep my head high above water. because of this, i've decided that i am going self-ban myself from ss as soon as i'm a comfy ways into therapy. following my evaluation, i'll be diagnosed/re-diagnosed and treated accordingly. the day i will be leaving the site is sunday, march 1st, 2020. i've also canceled all plans of ctb, meaning i will not be carrying it out on either dates i've mentioned here on the forums (jan 31st, 2020, june 1st, 2020 and june 30th, 2020).

following my consultation, i'll be meeting up with a psychologist and a psychiatrist weekly. if my mental state improves, it'll become a bi-weekly event. then, once i consensually agree with both of these professionals that i feel better, i will be regarded as "cured" of all my mental illnesses (putting "cured" in parentheses because mental illness can't be fully cured, but well-managed). while attending therapy, i will also be medicated. i have never been medicated before, and i've always felt that it is the missing puzzle piece.

if therapy and medication don't work, i'll come back to the site and ask for an unban. however, this is unlikely. even if i still feel like shit after getting help, i'll be way too busy with school to wallow and drag my feet here. i really want to be readmitted to my dream school because that's where all my friends are. also, few colleges offer all the "artsy" majors at said school.

anyways, all this being said... i'm still here for roughly another month (unless i change my mind and leave sooner/stay longer). i just wanted to give this notice for some reason. i didn't want to disappear and leave anyone wondering what in the world happened to me. i know a lot of people who used to be active here have faded into oblivion and left users looking for answers. i didn't want to be like that. if anyone i've gotten to know here wants to be friends outside of ss, let me know. i probably won't give you any of my personal social media, but i might give you my discord. it depends on how close we were. i dunno. we'll see. i'm still pretty tentative.

i'll still be posting if i have free time and see a thread that piques my interest. i'll also be making one more thread like this on march 1st to update you guys and say goodbye.

so... yeah. thank you to this site and its creators, staff, frequent posters, top contributors and everyone in between or outside that spectrum. i don't know what i would've done without this site during such a tough time in my life. between missing my shitty ex and struggling with college issues, you guys were always here to listen to me bitch and vent. you guys always gave me advice and offered a hug or helping hand. it's lovely to know that there's a corner of the internet where people are so caring. as a matter of fact, it's beautiful.

i love y'all. take care.

until march 1st... i wish you peace, ss.
 
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Pallf

I'm tired
May 27, 2018
357
My friend, I hope therapy and medication work well for you. You deserve happiness in this world.
 
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pole

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Sep 18, 2018
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glad you're trying to better yourself. goodluck, and hope you find the peace and happiness you rightfully deserve in this life or the next.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
Yet another member who has found a way to turn their life around! You're an inspiration to us all. I sincerely wish you good luck in your pursuit of happiness! :hug:
 
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martha

Experienced
Mar 14, 2019
201
some car music for you.....enjoy...
 
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hershberger

Student
Dec 28, 2019
127
I mourn the people we lose, and I rejoice with the people who decide to fight the good fight...but I support either decision. Having said that, I wish you all the best in life. I have enjoyed your posts - the avatar always catches my eye - but if you need to leave SS, then do. We'll be here if you need us.
 
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mesohappy

Cat piss sammich??
Jan 10, 2020
674
Good luck on your journey..I hope you find all that you are looking for.
 
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ManWithNoName

ManWithNoName

Enlightened
Feb 2, 2019
1,224
hey, gang.

by all means, i'm not even close to popular on this site. i've only been a member for a little over a month. despite my short time on here, i've met some pretty cool people and learned some really interesting new things. for those of you who haven't noticed, though (which is likely the majority of this site's population), i've been essentially m.i.a. for almost two weeks now. if you take a look at my activity from before these past two weeks, that's pretty unlike me. i used to post multiple times every day. to be honest, i spent hours on this site daily. but, a lot has been going on in life and while i am still struggling, i've realized that this website has only been perpetuating my ailing mental state.

this friday, i will be going to my first real mental health consultation. i've also started classes at my community college after being dismissed from my dream school and if i want to return to the latter this upcoming fall, i really need to stay extremely focused and keep my head high above water. because of this, i've decided that i am going self-ban myself from ss as soon as i'm a comfy ways into therapy. following my evaluation, i'll be diagnosed/re-diagnosed and treated accordingly. the day i will be leaving the site is sunday, march 1st, 2020. i've also canceled all plans of ctb, meaning i will not be carrying it out on either dates i've mentioned here on the forums (jan 31st, 2020, june 1st, 2020 and june 30th, 2020).

following my consultation, i'll be meeting up with a psychologist and a psychiatrist weekly. if my mental state improves, it'll become a bi-weekly event. then, once i consensually agree with both of these professionals that i feel better, i will be regarded as "cured" of all my mental illnesses (putting "cured" in parentheses because mental illness can't be fully cured, but well-managed). while attending therapy, i will also be medicated. i have never been medicated before, and i've always felt that it is the missing puzzle piece.

if therapy and medication don't work, i'll come back to the site and ask for an unban. however, this is unlikely. even if i still feel like shit after getting help, i'll be way too busy with school to wallow and drag my feet here. i really want to be readmitted to my dream school because that's where all my friends are. also, few colleges offer all the "artsy" majors at said school.

anyways, all this being said... i'm still here for roughly another month (unless i change my mind and leave sooner/stay longer). i just wanted to give this notice for some reason. i didn't want to disappear and leave anyone wondering what in the world happened to me. i know a lot of people who used to be active here have faded into oblivion and left users looking for answers. i didn't want to be like that. if anyone i've gotten to know here wants to be friends outside of ss, let me know. i probably won't give you any of my personal social media, but i might give you my discord. it depends on how close we were. i dunno. we'll see. i'm still pretty tentative.

i'll still be posting if i have free time and see a thread that piques my interest. i'll also be making one more thread like this on march 1st to update you guys and say goodbye.

so... yeah. thank you to this site and its creators, staff, frequent posters, top contributors and everyone in between or outside that spectrum. i don't know what i would've done without this site during such a tough time in my life. between missing my shitty ex and struggling with college issues, you guys were always here to listen to me bitch and vent. you guys always gave me advice and offered a hug or helping hand. it's lovely to know that there's a corner of the internet where people are so caring. as a matter of fact, it's beautiful.

i love y'all. take care.

until march 1st... i wish you peace, ss.
Always glad to read posts such as yours, God speed to you.
 
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LegaliseIt!

LegaliseIt!

Elementalist
Nov 29, 2019
808
Thank you for sharing your thoughts with us, and I hope that your self-care and educational plans go well.
Sending hugs and encouragement:hug:
 
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NeverHungry

NeverHungry

To eat or not to eat...
Jan 30, 2020
72
We've never talked before but I'm glad to hear that you're going down this positive path, and getting some help. That's great!
Wishing you a happy, fulfilling life. :heart:
 
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cloudgazer25

cloudgazer25

a dead girl pretending to be alive
Jan 30, 2020
22
glad for you to have found some sort of path!
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,554
Try medication systematically and don't give up. When you find one that helps it can be magic. So much luck to you.
 
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arposandra

Member
Nov 16, 2019
18
One day at a time. Congratulations on your new outlook, and may you find peace along your path.
 
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UpandDownPrincess

Elementalist
Dec 31, 2019
833
Good on you!

Better mental health is worth trying for. It may take a try or two, but help is out there.

I'm also happy for you about school. You're right: you'll need to buckle down and work hard to get back to the school you love. But go for it! There's no reason why you can't do it. School is definitely more fun with your close friends.

We'll be thinking of you and wishing you well as you move into the next great adventure that the world has for you. All my best!
 
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Mm80

Mm80

Enlightened
May 15, 2019
1,604
Good for you. This is the benefit for me of a pro choice community, id like to think it has helped due to its unconditional support rather than being preached to. In fact it woukd be nice if the media could pick up experiences like this.
All the best.
 
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LastRide

LastRide

Specialist
Jan 23, 2020
369
Wishing you real strength and courage for the long journey ahead back to life !
 
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