DevonBostick'sAss
Member
- Jan 10, 2025
- 41
I want to stop talking to someone, but if I do, I will also lose a lot of friends. I will be lonely, and I do not want to be lonely. It's like ripping out part of my life and leaving a hollow space where they all used to be. No more late-night calls, no more inside jokes, no more group plans that make me feel like I belong somewhere. I'll be on the outside, looking in, watching them laugh and move on while I sit alone, pretending it doesn't hurt. But pretending only works for so long before the ache of it all takes over
I cant deal with them. We always fight and im so sick of it. But if I leave I wont have anyone to spend my days I will be lonely. I just want to be ok to them staying with me but Im not okay to that.
The thought of leaving terrifies me because I've been lonely before. I know how it feels to sit in the quiet and wonder if anyone even remembers you exist. It's not just being alone it's the absence of connection, the ache of wondering if I made a mistake. But staying means keeping a part of myself locked away. Every time I bite my tongue or pretend to be okay, I lose a little piece of who I am.
Maybe loneliness isn't the worst thing. Maybe it's a chance to start over, to find people who see me for who I really am instead of who I've been pretending to be. It's scary, but so is staying in a place where I don't feel like I belong anymore. I dont know what to do or how to tell them.
When we fight they stop talking to me and when I ask why they say nothing but wont act like the same and this happens like every 2 days. Im so sick of it.
I cant deal with them. We always fight and im so sick of it. But if I leave I wont have anyone to spend my days I will be lonely. I just want to be ok to them staying with me but Im not okay to that.
The thought of leaving terrifies me because I've been lonely before. I know how it feels to sit in the quiet and wonder if anyone even remembers you exist. It's not just being alone it's the absence of connection, the ache of wondering if I made a mistake. But staying means keeping a part of myself locked away. Every time I bite my tongue or pretend to be okay, I lose a little piece of who I am.
Maybe loneliness isn't the worst thing. Maybe it's a chance to start over, to find people who see me for who I really am instead of who I've been pretending to be. It's scary, but so is staying in a place where I don't feel like I belong anymore. I dont know what to do or how to tell them.
When we fight they stop talking to me and when I ask why they say nothing but wont act like the same and this happens like every 2 days. Im so sick of it.
