leaving a suicide note or not

[painmustend]

so i´m currently thinking about my suicide note and if i want to leave one at all. if i do leave a suicide note, i don´t know if i should tell the truth about how i feel about certain people or if i just need to let it be in the past. basically there are 2 people who hurt me pretty bad and i really wish i could show them what their behaviour has done to me. in my mind there are 3 options and maybe some of you could help me to figure out the right choice:
1. tell them befor i ctb (but what if i fail and have to live with the consequences then?)
2. write it down in my suicide note (but i also do not want them to think that they are the reason i´m doing it, because they are defenitly NOT + i also don´t want them to feel hurt just because they hurt me)
3. just forget about them and don´t do anything in regards to them, don´t write them now, don´t mention them in my suicide note

i would really appreciate your help!!

 

[GettingOut]

My suicide note has been on my mind for days now. In my life, I've had to deal with sexual, physical and emotional abuse, as well as chronic pain, severe depression, abandonment issues, etc. But I'm not going to mention any of that in my note or point fingers to those who finally pushed me over the edge.

It will just be something like: "I needed too much support for anyone to deal with their problems and mine. With all that has happened to me in life, I just couldn't carry on. Thanks for giving what you could give. Continue to support those who need it most. Love you all."

It will be traumatic enough for them to find out about the suicide. Sincere individuals will think about their actions. Those that that don't care, will never care. At least, I'll be at rest.

 

[Skyyyfarer 26]

I don't know if this is of any help but I have thought about this particular topic a lot
Basically the people whom I want to show how bad they messed me up are my abusive parents but even though they hurt me my entire life i also don't think they are the main reason why i want to ctb but also i do want other people to know what horrible people they were
But now I don't think they even deserve that much because atleast in death i don't want to be associated with them(if that makes sense?)
So i won't be leaving a suicide note
I would have considered telling them before I ctb but every conversation with them ends up in them gaslighting me so it's really of no use plus they don't really care that much
I don't know if this will help you make your decision in any way but I wish u the best

 

[painmustend]

My suicide note has been on my mind for days now. In my life, I've had to deal with sexual, physical and emotional abuse, as well as chronic pain, severe depression, abandonment issues, etc. But I'm not going to mention any of that in my note or point fingers to those who finally pushed me over the edge.

It will just be something like: "I needed too much support for anyone to deal with their problems and mine. With all that has happened to me in life, I just couldn't carry on. Thanks for giving what you could give. Continue to support those who need it most. Love you all."

It will be traumatic enough for them to find out about the suicide. Sincere individuals will think about their actions. Those that that don't care, will never care. At least, I'll be at rest.

i´m very sorry that you had to go through such terrible things! it´s really impressive that you manage to still be here and i´m sending you strenght and well wishes. i hope one way or the other you´ll find peace and the suffering will end.
thank you very much for your advice. your point of view helped me a lot especially the point that, they will probably start to think about there actions without needing an outside "push".
leaving a suicide note seems like a big deal in my mind, but maybe it is better to say less than more. thank you and i wish you well!

I don't know if this is of any help but I have thought about this particular topic a lot
Basically the people whom I want to show how bad they messed me up are my abusive parents but even though they hurt me my entire life i also don't think they are the main reason why i want to ctb but also i do want other people to know what horrible people they were
But now I don't think they even deserve that much because atleast in death i don't want to be associated with them(if that makes sense?)
So i won't be leaving a suicide note
I would have considered telling them before I ctb but every conversation with them ends up in them gaslighting me so it's really of no use plus they don't really care that much
I don't know if this will help you make your decision in any way but I wish u the best

thanks for your advice and your story. this topic is also on my mind constantly right now so i want to make the right decision, right now i´m thinking about leaving a relativly short note and before i do it, i´ll tell the people i appreciated how much i really did and the other ones will left out of it. maybe i´ll tell them before i ctb that some actions hurt me a lot, but i´m not sure.
it sound exhausting and awful what you´re going through/been through. i think your decision makes sense and is absolutly valid. i also wish you the best and send you much strenght to keep going as long as you want<3

 

[AShipinthedark]

It will just be something like: "I needed too much support for anyone to deal with their problems and mine. With all that has happened to me in life, I just couldn't carry on. Thanks for giving what you could give. Continue to support those who need it most. Love you all."

How poignant. May I use a variation of this in my own note?

 

[Wehmut]

I would definitely go for the third option. If they somehow end up knowing that you ended your life they might reflect on their actions and if they dont they dont.

 

[Anna.]

Im leaving one for my wife, and then one for my abusive parents. Just to tell them how they made me feel. It's selfish, but..

 

[day]

Suicide and what one does during their preparations is truly up to the individual. Do what YOU feel is right not others. I find it weird for people to give suggestions on what someone should do with their own suicide as suicide should be one of the deepest conversations a person has with themselves. Regardless of that just look at your options and see what one accomplishes your own goal the most.

I wish you best of luck OP I hope you can find peace in this horrible world.

 

[RichardFirst]

I've written one to my parents and brother. It's not even a page long, and it simply details what to do with whatever money or possessions that I have. The only reason I give is simply that I'm worn out an exhausted by life. It's succinct, and I don't see the need to ramble on for pages of self-pity.

 

[strawberry_lemons]

In the end its whatever makes you feel the most peace and closer before ctb. write out as much or as little as you think needs to bed said, get out any lingering feelings, read it over, spell check. explain the hurt youve felt but maybe include a postive if possible loved ones cherish those kinds of things. all in all I wish you the best <3