Noir
Member
- Dec 9, 2018
- 19
I was thinking about making a thread to meet up with locals here. But later on I thought "Does it make any sense ?".
I like the idea of dying with others, the more the better. Not because i am afraid to die or unsure about it. I just want my last moments to be with people who accept my decision and are like minded. My last moments shouldn't be sad, I want to laugh, tell story's and listen to some.
My ideal way before I ctb would be to go camping with a few like minded for 1-3 days and party out.
But as i started to write this here i remembered that meeting with ppl here might be harder then I thought, as we are all living rather far from each other and are kinda afraid that there are some frauds under us. This makes the whole thing harder.
Well...as i started reading in this forum my mind calmed down, rather refreshing and surprising. I never thought i could find a website where you can look for pact partners. In my region it got banned. They even report you and find you with your IP if you post for suicide partners/helper....and the police checks on you. Happy this site is here.
Just sharing and reading makes the whole thing less important/weird. I always thought there is something wrong with me, well there sure is! I am just unhappy with the entire situation. Not mine in particular just that life is boring and existence is painful. I would share more but the wall of words i am about to write might just fill way to much then i intended at the start.
To make it short...I just wanted to share my true thoughts and listen to others as we go to the end. Its not possible to share this with my friends/family as i would end up in a place i don't want to be.
I like the idea of dying with others, the more the better. Not because i am afraid to die or unsure about it. I just want my last moments to be with people who accept my decision and are like minded. My last moments shouldn't be sad, I want to laugh, tell story's and listen to some.
My ideal way before I ctb would be to go camping with a few like minded for 1-3 days and party out.
But as i started to write this here i remembered that meeting with ppl here might be harder then I thought, as we are all living rather far from each other and are kinda afraid that there are some frauds under us. This makes the whole thing harder.
Well...as i started reading in this forum my mind calmed down, rather refreshing and surprising. I never thought i could find a website where you can look for pact partners. In my region it got banned. They even report you and find you with your IP if you post for suicide partners/helper....and the police checks on you. Happy this site is here.
Just sharing and reading makes the whole thing less important/weird. I always thought there is something wrong with me, well there sure is! I am just unhappy with the entire situation. Not mine in particular just that life is boring and existence is painful. I would share more but the wall of words i am about to write might just fill way to much then i intended at the start.
To make it short...I just wanted to share my true thoughts and listen to others as we go to the end. Its not possible to share this with my friends/family as i would end up in a place i don't want to be.
