Last words to family members.

[UmbosGirl]

What do you say to the people who love you the last time you're ever going to see them. I feel so incredibly guilty, but I don't want to just avoid it.

a hug and 'I love you' will never be enough, but is there something better?

 

[NekoNomNom]

I've been struggling with this, myself. I've written letters to three specific people, then a general letter. I've attempted to ctb quite a few times in the last two months, but without success. I always think of my son in those last moments, and it prevents me from going any further. I am so terrified to leave him, because I know I want more time with him.

Unfortunately, I'm still coping with this question. The best answer I can give you is to leave them heartfelt letters, and spend as much time with them as you feel you can. I've been trying to do some research on how to prepare myself to say goodbye to my son, but haven't found anything resourceful yet.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I thought long and hard about writing extensive messages, but found it too hard to do. My plan is to act normal and carry on as normal, that way it just feels a little bit easier to let go.

 

[Acornsonatree]

I'm going to leave a voice memo to my family because English isn't their first language and I want it to be personal.

I think that for my last day however I just want to go on as normal, I'm going to try and have a proper conversation with my mum and dad (Which doesn't often happen)

I don't know what I'm going to say to my younger siblings, I guess I'll probably just give them lots of hugs and tell them how much I love them, without making it seem suspicious.

As for my older brother, we've never really gotten along since our teenage years. I will try and have a conversation with him, maybe get to know him a bit.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I read what struggles you have in another post but what makes you dislike life so much to ctb?
Which part of being alive makes you uneasy?

 

[UmbosGirl]

Well, it's painful. Even when I should be happy it's painful. I have to work very hard to be stable and I'm so fucking tired of the constant struggle with none of the upsides.

I'm covered head to toe in scars because thats one of the only things that's ever made me feel safe, and even that feels like a failure now.

I've been through years of all kinds of treatments and nothing seems to help.

The rest of my life feels like an ordeal I'm going through for my family. And I can't accept that.

I think that makes me selfish, but I can't take any more pain.

 

[KleinerWolf]

It's understandable it made you feel safe

but what are the things/reasons that cause you to harm yourself?
What are the most painful aspects in your life, if you can describe it?

 

[UmbosGirl]

Lol, why do you ask?

 

[Isittimetogonola]

My deep letters are written. I plan on leaving videos on dropbox for each of them. Happy birthdays, Merry Christmas and stuff like that. They will only be able to view their specific videos. Still have financial stuff to handle and that will be it.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Lol, why do you ask?

Suicide notes are hard to finish,
I've probably drafted and deleted it at least 20 times by now.

I'd like to get to know your story so people can know you a bit better and people can probably relate to you.
I'm sure things must be hard for you.
It's human nature to talk about stuff and see whether or not it's something we can solve together.

Only if you want that is.
It is your discretion after all.

*Sending love and hugs your way*

 

[SpareWheel]

I've been struggling with this myself. There's only really my Mam who I want to properly say goodbye to, but if I do anything out of the ordinary I fear she'll click on to what I'm planning and then go out her way to stop me. I can't even write a proper goodbye letter as I get stuck as to whether I tell her the whole truth why I'm doing it, which might compel her to feel guilt for the rest of her life for not seeing how unhappy I was or something.

She's literally the only reason I've stuck around so long. Trying my best to make it as easy as possible for her when I'm gone is my main worry, I'm her only child so it will hit hard, I only hope I can make it a little less painful before I go. I think once I've got a letter written I'm happy with I'll spend as much time as possible with her, all the while acting like I'm fine so she doesn't become too suspicous. I've got til the end of June to do it so there's at least some hope I can succeed.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Lol, why do you ask?

Suicide notes are hard to finish,
I've probably drafted and deleted it at least 20 times by now.

I'd like to get to know your story so people can know you a bit better and people can probably relate to you.
I'm sure things must be hard for you.
It's human nature to talk about stuff and see whether or not it's something we can solve together.

Only if you want that is.
It is your discretion after all.

*Sending love and hugs your way*

 

[Isittimetogonola]

Write from the heart. Dont delete. Mine were works in progress over several months. Many many revisions but now they tell the whole story and what I want to leave them with. Maybe it will help them, but mostly the letters helped me.

 

[RileyTanaka]

I have been at this juncture before with prior suicide attempts, and usually the last things I said to my family were mundane and didn't hint at my intentions. Granted, I'm not close with my family, so anything emotive would have seemed odd in general.

 

[iquitcountingstars]

My deep letters are written. I plan on leaving videos on dropbox for each of them. Happy birthdays, Merry Christmas and stuff like that. They will only be able to view their specific videos. Still have financial stuff to handle and that will be it.

That's really, really beautiful.