Last three months

[Dicktracy]

has anyone on this site actually killed them selves ?

 

[Angel]

Yes. Quite a few, I've only just signed up but been lurking for ages. Seen people attempt and succeed

 

[Afterman]

Yep. Although we can never be 100% sure unless there's a newstory or someone personally knew them.

 

[Virgo]

lots

 

[gingerplum]

I think most people on here are serious AF.

Edit: A guy who mostly just lurks pm'd me today so I could look at his lab values... he's been ingesting benzene to give himself eosinophilic leukemia so his family will think he died of natural causes. And it looks like it's working. Leukemia. Inducing cancer by loading himself up with a petrochemical. I just about fell the fuck over.

 

[Final Escape]

There's many people I don't see anymore that were on here frequently when I first joined. This doesn't mean they all died but something changed and they stopped posting or responding to PM's.

 

[mattwitt]

There's many people I don't see anymore that were on here frequently when I first joined. This doesn't mean they all died but something changed and they stopped posting or responding to PM's.

And all around the same time.

 

[weedoge]

I think most people on here are serious AF.

Edit: A guy who mostly just lurks pm'd me today so I could look at his lab values... he's been ingesting benzene to give himself eosinophilic leukemia so his family will think he died of natural causes. And it looks like it's working. Leukemia. Inducing cancer by loading himself up with a petrochemical. I just about fell the fuck over.

Christ, is that even likely to work?

 

[bigj75]

I think most people on here are serious AF.

Edit: A guy who mostly just lurks pm'd me today so I could look at his lab values... he's been ingesting benzene to give himself eosinophilic leukemia so his family will think he died of natural causes. And it looks like it's working. Leukemia. Inducing cancer by loading himself up with a petrochemical. I just about fell the fuck over.

WTF

 

[iHeartRockArt]

I think most people on here are serious AF.

Edit: A guy who mostly just lurks pm'd me today so I could look at his lab values... he's been ingesting benzene to give himself eosinophilic leukemia so his family will think he died of natural causes. And it looks like it's working. Leukemia. Inducing cancer by loading himself up with a petrochemical. I just about fell the fuck over.

Wow, seems like a very long, drawn out way to CTB. That's sad he feels like he has to do that.

 

[deathbycakes]

uh, that'd be me.
i put the liquid in empty pills in case you're wondering how i get to ingest those. also a girl not guy.

tbh i want to do N but its too expensive, and SN makes your body turns blue(?) and i don't want that. i've tried taking a bunch of meds mixed up together but didn't do anything at all (before i found this forum)
if only we all have an exit button that we can press and drop dead anytime from that...

 

[weedoge]

uh, that'd be me.
i put the liquid in empty pills in case you're wondering how i get to ingest those. also a girl not guy.

tbh i want to do N but its too expensive, and SN makes your body turns blue(?) and i don't want that. i've tried taking a bunch of meds mixed up together but didn't do anything at all (before i found this forum)
if only we all have an exit button that we can press and drop dead anytime from that...

SN does that? Have you done any research on if dosage affects it? I'm going to assume it's due to the hypoxic effects of SN but will any dosage cause a full blue body effect? (Please don't show me pictures of bodies)

 

[deathbycakes]

SN does that? Have you done any research on if dosage affects it? I'm going to assume it's due to the hypoxic effects of SN but will any dosage cause a full blue body effect? (Please don't show me pictures of bodies)

got the impression by reading bunch of sn threads. there's a user that failed and her face turned blue/greenish from that. yeah i think from the lack of oxygen

 

[deathbycakes]

SN does that? Have you done any research on if dosage affects it? I'm going to assume it's due to the hypoxic effects of SN but will any dosage cause a full blue body effect? (Please don't show me pictures of bodies)

 

[Sigurd Bonehill]

does anyone know what happened to Chinaski?

 

[Vegrau]

I think most people on here are serious AF.

Edit: A guy who mostly just lurks pm'd me today so I could look at his lab values... he's been ingesting benzene to give himself eosinophilic leukemia so his family will think he died of natural causes. And it looks like it's working. Leukemia. Inducing cancer by loading himself up with a petrochemical. I just about fell the fuck over.

Actually dying of cancer have been my wish. I will do that too if I know how.

 

[gingerplum]

Wow, seems like a very long, drawn out way to CTB. That's sad he feels like he has to do that.

Incredibly sad, and amazingly brave, I think. To protect his family It overwhelms me to think about.

 

[gingerplum]

Christ, is that even likely to work?

Yes, although I would've thought it might have taken years of exposure... apparently not. Benzene is a known carcinogen. I saw his lab values and his eosinophils are elevated at twice the normal level. If it's not an allergic response-- and I don't think it is-- hello, leukemia.

 

[gingerplum]

uh, that'd be me.
i put the liquid in empty pills in case you're wondering how i get to ingest those. also a girl not guy.

tbh i want to do N but its too expensive, and SN makes your body turns blue(?) and i don't want that. i've tried taking a bunch of meds mixed up together but didn't do anything at all (before i found this forum)
if only we all have an exit button that we can press and drop dead anytime from that...

You know, I never even thought to check your profile, honestly I just assumed you were a guy. Why? Because for the most part it's men who are more serious and, well, more successful in suicidal intent. Often to the point of not caring about suffering.

Now I'm doubly impressed. And I was already floored that anyone could have the inner fortitude to pull something like that off. Holy fuckballs, you're brave.

 

[gingerplum]

SN does that? Have you done any research on if dosage affects it? I'm going to assume it's due to the hypoxic effects of SN but will any dosage cause a full blue body effect? (Please don't show me pictures of bodies)

I researched it. Apparently if it's enough to kill you, it's enough to turn you blue/green. People who have ingested small/smaller amounts and have successful medical intervention have been noted to be cyanotic (blue in appearance secondary to lack of oxygen) around the lips and fingertips.

I mentioned this on another thread, and someone said, "What do I care, I'll be dead." Sure, but finding someone dead is hard enough; that's got to be doubly traumatic for someone to see.

 

[gingerplum]

Christ, is that even likely to work?

Looks like it actually is working.

 

[checking out]

I think most people on here are serious AF.

Edit: A guy who mostly just lurks pm'd me today so I could look at his lab values... he's been ingesting benzene to give himself eosinophilic leukemia so his family will think he died of natural causes. And it looks like it's working. Leukemia. Inducing cancer by loading himself up with a petrochemical. I just about fell the fuck over.

Your medical insights are always fascinating!. Thanks for bringing your knowledge to the forum

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Actually dying of cancer have been my wish. I will do that too if I know how.

I have cancer and I can guarantee you that it's an agonising, drawn-out experience. I'm going to CTB long before the point of needing hospice care.

Do you really want to experience the agony of multiple tumours inside your body? Not being able to breathe cause of tumours in the lungs? By the time you get to the point of needing palliative care you're pissing and shitting yourself. Cancer is one of the worst ways the body can die.

 

[gingerplum]

Your medical insights are always fascinating!. Thanks for bringing your knowledge to the forum

*blushes*

 

[iHeartRockArt]

Incredibly sad, and amazingly brave, I think. To protect his family It overwhelms me to think about.

Very brave. Heartbreaking

 

[gingerplum]

Daaaaamn. That is crazy....not that the guy is crazy, but it's a difficult way to go. I just lost one of my parents to leukemia two months ago and it was a terrible thing to witness. Leukemia seems to be one of those things though where people who'd normally want someone to "fight" it give in and wish for a swift death for the person suffering. Also, considering what my parent did for a living I wonder if that contributed to him getting it.
It's just so sad that we must resort to things like this because of the way the world is.

She. I didn't realize it was a she. I agree, it speaks to desperation.

 

[Xerxes]

Giving yourself cancer comes at a cost. Of course you die of natural causes, but if you have family members determined to keep you alive, it'll incur a cost that will take down your family. Cancer is expensive and I've seen how it can send a family into bankruptcy. Just something to think about.

If you could relocate or Oregon or a country that allows euthanasia, then do so.

 

[FML0000000]

Giving yourself cancer comes at a cost. Of course you die of natural causes, but if you have family members determined to keep you alive, it'll incur a cost that will take down your family. Cancer is expensive and I've seen how it can send a family into bankruptcy. Just something to think about.

If you could relocate or Oregon or a country that allows euthanasia, then do so.

For anyone considering going to Oregon you have to live there long enough to establish residency, so 1 year, if I recall correctly. And I think you have to find 3 doctors willing to vouch for your case. Any history of mental illness will disqualify you though. Worth a try if you have the time. I'm sure many here have seen that documentary...I think it's called "How to die in Oregon" or something. Very well done, imo.

 

[Final Escape]

I think most people on here are serious AF.

Edit: A guy who mostly just lurks pm'd me today so I could look at his lab values... he's been ingesting benzene to give himself eosinophilic leukemia so his family will think he died of natural causes. And it looks like it's working. Leukemia. Inducing cancer by loading himself up with a petrochemical. I just about fell the fuck over.

Pretty clever and obviously determined. That guy has balls.

 

[gingerplum]

Pretty clever and obviously determined. That guy has balls.

Turns out it's a girl. I assumed it was a guy because she has the guts of a fucking Seal Team 6 leader.