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Loser47
Student
- Jan 14, 2021
- 130
I have already got SN and antiemetic so from past few days I have been only thinking when and how should I do it, yesterday I was feeling at peace probably thought will live longer went to sleep but couldn't fall asleep just kept thinking about I can't go on anymore. Woke up then decided to order digital weighing scale and 50ML glass which I had kept in cart from two weeks to order when I feel like doing it. I placed the order, talked with someone I met on SS. Then after some time went back to back to sleep
Then I find myself having pretty realistic dream about taking SN, I drink SN I'm thinking about all the things I have read, will I vomit, I'm trying to calm myself in dream don't worry nothing try to fall asleep. I experience slight vomiting sensation than I feel I'm going to sleep and I'm feeling relieved this is last sleep I'm never waking up again. But then I don't remember what happened I wake up I realise it was just a dream :/
Has anyone here had dreams like this?
Then I find myself having pretty realistic dream about taking SN, I drink SN I'm thinking about all the things I have read, will I vomit, I'm trying to calm myself in dream don't worry nothing try to fall asleep. I experience slight vomiting sensation than I feel I'm going to sleep and I'm feeling relieved this is last sleep I'm never waking up again. But then I don't remember what happened I wake up I realise it was just a dream :/
Has anyone here had dreams like this?