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Beachedwhale

Mage
Mar 3, 2021
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I got a flicker of solace from giving myself one last chance.

Just one last chance to better things. Let's do all the possible things.

If still there is no relief, then off the cliff I go!

Perhaps this might help anyone here wanting to improve despite low energy and/or fear.
 
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Sans

Protesting the conditions of an inhumane world
Oct 2, 2019
346
I want to be saved. I really do. But I can't, due to the simple fact that there is no existing surgery that can fix the physical deformities that make me want to CTB in the first place. If there was, I'd gladly give myself "one last chance",

Though technically speaking, I'm already living through what's probably my hundredth "last chance" so far. I've already fucked up more times than one can count - the only reason I haven't offed myself yet is because I don't have the proper means to do so.
 
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whywere

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Jun 26, 2020
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I truly send you lots of love and hugs and the hope that things work out so you just go to the cliff area to view the ocean and that is all. Everyone deserves more chances in the aspect of life and to find happiness and joy and I hope that you can get and hold the flicker of hope, happiness and the feeling of warm sunshine and a nice cool breeze flowing over you. You are a part of our global family and I send you lots of kindness and support!!!!! Walter
 
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BlankUser

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Apr 24, 2021
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Yes, definitely do it! I support you! I decided to give myself one more chance this week but I'm still failing. It was a horrible week, except for yesterday. Yesterday was quite good. But overall I lack energy, I'm irritated, doing something takes so much energy and gives so little of reward. My boyfriend and my fear to ctb are literally the only things keeping me alive. But I guess it takes time to see any real change, so I'm trying in very small steps.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I wish you the best. Hopefully things will improve. I imagine it would take a lot of energy to try to get better though. This world can be so cruel and existence can be a nightmare. At least whatever happens death is waiting for us someday.
 
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