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Xe/It
- Apr 2, 2023
- 336
I... don't hate myself right now. I'm still embarrassed by myself but I'm at peace with it... I'm cringe and annoying as hell and people scare me but I love love, I love helping people, I love when they say they love me and I love letting them know I love them, it feels amazing, I love people, I love getting to know them, their impulses and desires and quirks, people are adorable and sweet and trying their best and I love them and I love that I love so hard, it's intense and weird and intense and too much but I've made the people I love smile and happy even if I do burden or drain or bum em out with my shitty emotions, I'm not perfect, I get resentful and passive aggressive and whiny and self-pitying and lack self-awareness about how I come across at times but as long as they accept and find joy in it, I will shower my friends and anyone else who lets me with overwhelming love cuz it feels good, I'm tired of being afraid of myself and others, I'll get hurt and hurt people but I wanna do my best, it's the selfless and selfish working in harmony cuz both can be destructive but both can be healing in reasonable amounts, I wanna give and recieve as much love and joy and comfort as possible, to heal the emptiness and pain in me and others, I wanna help heal this broken world even if just like 0.00001%, I wanna make this world better, stop complaining and be there for the people I know and like and trust and love, I'd fight God for my friends, even if he instakills me, worth it, I love you Sasu, may things get better for us all 
