Discussion Know anyone who has CTB?

[ARW3N]

I've known quite a few people who have successfully CTB. I wasn't aware of their plans beforehand. I vaguely remember some pupil at my school had hanged himself at home. A work colleague hanged himself at my workplace after a failed overdose at home. A female colleague overdosed at home after a male colleague broke off their engagement. My plumber jumped in front of a train. A schizophrenic I knew at a church I used to go to cut his wrists. His parents found him dead at home after finding a trail of blood on the floor leading to the bathroom. He had apparently tried crawling to the bathroom after he cut his wrists.

 

[Soul]

About 2/3rds of my blood relatives, plus some acquaintances & colleagues. Any reason you're asking?

 

[Final Escape]

I haven't personally, although I've met people who were so wreckless that it was as if they were committing suicide because of the self abandonment, excessive drugs or alcohol. So drinking self to death, wreckless driving, risky lifestyle.

 

[ARW3N]

About 2/3rds of my blood relatives, plus some acquaintances & colleagues. Any reason you're asking?

There's no particular reason I'm asking. Just wondering if anyone contemplating CTB personally know others who have CTB.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

3 friends did. One of whom was one of my best mate. It hurts to be left behind. Torn between joining them for the bus ride, and not letting down the people around me...

 

[BPD Barbie]

My friend hung himself last August and due to my job with the ambulance service, it happened to be my job as it was local. That was probably one of the hardest things I've dealt with. Came through as a standard hanging, didn't think anything of it until the name came through.
Earlier in the day his mum had been on Facebook asking if anyone had seen him as he'd just disappeared. Left his phone, wallet and keys at home and just gone. It was hard once I knew because I couldn't tell her, I still haven't told any of the family that it was my shout.
I spent a week at home from work, crying most days, feeling it was my fault, I should have done more, I should have saved him. I was angry at the police because they hadn't even tried to cut him down. So many emotions. Damn that was a hard time.

 

[puppy9]

My neighbor ctb'ed by drinking weed killer. I heard it's painful.

 

[brainpain2]

Friends, old classmates, co-workers, acquaintances. In each instance I felt very sad knowing they were in such a bad place CTB was the only answer. As in I felt bad for their lives beforehand but not bad that they needed to do it. I understand.

My friend hung himself last August and due to my job with the ambulance service, it happened to be my job as it was local. That was probably one of the hardest things I've dealt with. Came through as a standard hanging, didn't think anything of it until the name came through.
Earlier in the day his mum had been on Facebook asking if anyone had seen him as he'd just disappeared. Left his phone, wallet and keys at home and just gone. It was hard once I knew because I couldn't tell her, I still haven't told any of the family that it was my shout.
I spent a week at home from work, crying most days, feeling it was my fault, I should have done more, I should have saved him. I was angry at the police because they hadn't even tried to cut him down. So many emotions. Damn that was a hard time.

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. And how could the police legally get away with not attempting to cut them down?

 

[134340]

Two girls I went to high school with and one girl I was hospitalized with after the first time I attempted, all ctb by hanging. The girl I was in the hospital with hit the hardest. You get so close with people in there, and I was especially close with her. She was only 15 and she did it at school. It still breaks my heart to this day, almost 7 years later.

 

[brainpain2]

Two girls I went to high school with and one girl I was hospitalized with after the first time I attempted, all ctb by hanging. The girl I was in the hospital with hit the hardest. You get so close with people in there, and I was especially close with her. She was only 15 and she did it at school. It still breaks my heart to this day, almost 7 years later.

It is sad when kids CTB. There is so much that can still change. Adults have usually found out that their problems are indeed permanent or worth checking out over

 

[BPD Barbie]

I'm so sorry you had to go through that. And how could the police legally get away with not attempting to cut them down?

I'm not sure. There were initial reports that he was turning blue when found, so in my eyes I'd have said that was a workable cardiac arrest. I did lodge a formal complaint with the police but they came back and said they followed protocols. There was a lot of unanswered questions tbh. But I had to let it go after a while. I did what I could, could I have done more? Probably not. If we'd have got him back would it have been what he wanted? Would he have had resent for me for even bringing him back?

 

[brainpain2]

I'm not sure. There were initial reports that he was turning blue when found, so in my eyes I'd have said that was a workable cardiac arrest. I did lodge a formal complaint with the police but they came back and said they followed protocols. There was a lot of unanswered questions tbh. But I had to let it go after a while. I did what I could, could I have done more? Probably not. If we'd have got him back would it have been what he wanted? Would he have had resent for me for even bringing him back?

I hope they were able to remove you from the situation considering you personal closeness to it as soon as enough backup had arrived.

Unfortunately even if you had "done enough" and was resentful for it he should have understood it was your job and legal obligation. It was just unfortunate you had to end up at that call. It sound like it was obviously a very serious attempt (so serious it was successful) so even if he had survived he likely would have attempted again and succeeded anyways.

 

[BPD Barbie]

I hope they were able to remove you from the situation considering you personal closeness to it as soon as enough backup had arrived.

Unfortunately even if you had "done enough" and was resentful for it he should have understood it was your job and legal obligation. It was just unfortunate you had to end up at that call. It sound like it was obviously a very serious attempt (so serious it was successful) so even if he had survived he likely would have attempted again and succeeded anyways.

I worked like I would any other call but as soon as it was over we always debriefed on horrific calls like that, and I just broke down. There had been another hanging the day before and my friend and the previous knew each other, we think it was a knock on effect. I just hope he's at peace. He was always laughing and smiling, nobody had the faintest idea he was so troubled.

Thank you for your comments though, it's appreciated

 

[ARW3N]

My friend hung himself last August and due to my job with the ambulance service, it happened to be my job as it was local. That was probably one of the hardest things I've dealt with. Came through as a standard hanging, didn't think anything of it until the name came through.
Earlier in the day his mum had been on Facebook asking if anyone had seen him as he'd just disappeared. Left his phone, wallet and keys at home and just gone. It was hard once I knew because I couldn't tell her, I still haven't told any of the family that it was my shout.
I spent a week at home from work, crying most days, feeling it was my fault, I should have done more, I should have saved him. I was angry at the police because they hadn't even tried to cut him down. So many emotions. Damn that was a hard time.

The work colleague I mentioned who hanged himself overnight in the back of my workplace left a suicide note on the boss' desk along with his mobile. I didn't take it personally when he complained in his suicide note that me and the other workers weren't paying him enough attention. The odd thing about it all was that he knew about a letter I had given to the boss demanding a holiday. His suicide note was in a way his resignation letter to the boss and the world. The police were satisfied he had taken his own life after they checked the CCTV which showed him hanging himself.

 

[anxietyaddict]

I've known quite a few people who have successfully CTB. I wasn't aware of their plans beforehand. I vaguely remember some pupil at my school had hanged himself at home. A work colleague hanged himself at my workplace after a failed overdose at home. A female colleague overdosed at home after a male colleague broke off their engagement. My plumber jumped in front of a train. A schizophrenic I knew at a church I used to go to cut his wrists. His parents found him dead at home after finding a trail of blood on the floor leading to the bathroom. He had apparently tried crawling to the bathroom after he cut his wrists.

My family doctor jumped off a bridge a few months ago. Both my dad and mum have histories of suicidal thoughts. Not surprised where I got mine from.

 

[Moonicide]

Yes. One of my first friends here successfully ctbed. I've never had a friend ctb until them, so it's been a very emotional thing for me. I'm coping though. I'm happy she's finally at peace, but catching a glimpse of her kind soul hurt too. It's always the good people that get hurt the most, you know? She didn't deserve that... Life and the mental health system had failed her terribly. My heart aches for her even now, but I know she's in a better place now.

 

[Jumper]

Friend of mine in college developed schizophrenia and jumped in front of a train a few years later. Friend's ex boyfriend (a junior doctor) jumped in front of a train because he thought he'd failed his board exam. Both died, but this is generally an unreliable method.

 

[mediocre]

No but I wish I had because it might have made it easier.