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iwanttodie000
Student
- Feb 15, 2021
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It's really hard to plan to ctb and execute it when you don't live alone. I set my date this past weekend and have so much to do to prepare. But just a few days in and I'm already finding it difficult to do that with my partner here. My partner knows I have depression/mental health issues, but no idea about me ctb. How do I get everything done when I'm not alone? And it's not only getting everything done, it's acting normal like nothing is wrong or different, which I do with the depression all the time, but ctb is way different to try and act like nothing is up. I think I can manage getting the gun without them knowing and hiding it somewhere, but the suicide note, the gun classes etc are going to be hard to hide. Also, realizing we'll be doing things and going places for the last time as well is a bit of a mind fuck. It's going to be difficult to keep my mouth shut about all this and hide the prep, but I have to or this will be foiled in no time. Ugh.