Discussion keep imagining yourself dying/bleeding out?

[KiraComplex]

i keep replaying the image in my head of someone putting a bag over my head and shooting me and me bleeding out on the asphalt. happens completely unprompted.

does anyone else imagine themselves dying?

 

[Deleted member 18655]

I think it was @WillOxyWork who took SN which is my method. There was a transcript of his last moments. It shook me reading that he was gaspong and moaning before he passed. This is the image I have quite frequently.

 

[RedDEE]

You've been watching too many gore videos, dude. Stop watching that shit!

But while we're on the topic - I've seen my fair share of gore videos. I have seen videos of people dieing horribly, painfully, and tragically - and I've seen the fear on their faces.

That's one reason I want to CTB. I'm afraid of dieing a horrible, violent death full of pain and fear. If I take matters into my own hands, and end my own life, I'll have control over it, and I can make sure it ends painlessly with no fear.

 

[Ardesevent]

Same here. It'a mostly bloody fantasies that I could never go through with, like clawing out my heart or gouging my eyes. No idea why.

 

[esse_est_percipi]

I think it was @WillOxyWork who took SN which is my method. There was a transcript of his last moments. It shook me reading that he was gaspong and moaning before he passed. This is the image I have quite frequently.

Was this in a thread on this site?

 

[rt1989526]

I think it was @WillOxyWork who took SN which is my method. There was a transcript of his last moments. It shook me reading that he was gaspong and moaning before he passed. This is the image I have quite frequently.

Can you send me a link to this transcript?

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

WTF is this

 

[BridgeJumper]

All the time
Down to every smallest detail
The fall
My limbs breaking
Blood pouring
Being placed in a body bag

Ive been having these thoughts since I was a teenager. Often I just completely zone out, playing the jump in my head, not responding to anything unless yelled at or something
Its fucked up but Im glad Im not alone :/

 

[Painless_end]

Not bloody but fantasies of hanging myself

 

[Sinai Silence]

I get very vivid dreams from time to time of me dying in different ways. I replay over my past attempts a lot and wonder what I could've done differently to be successful.

 

[softfuzzyman]

Oof yeah the intrusive graphic suicide fantasies are frequent, tho it doesn't center on a single method for me, it's just kinda vivid fantasies of all kinds of methods.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Can you send me a link to this transcript?

My apologies: it was @all_pointless

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/the-documenting-of-all_pointless-passing-away-by-sn.44504/

 

[rt1989526]

Thanks! I do remember that one. Honestly doesn't seem too bad, I'd probably sign up for that. Sounds like it was over pretty quick.

 

[Life_and_Death]

I use to back when I was 14 or 15. Every where's I looked I'd see items I could kill myself with. I had no control over it. If I closed my eyes my mind would just create it's own horror. It wasnt just "oh I can use this" my mind would play it out.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Thanks! I do remember that one. Honestly doesn't seem too bad, I'd probably sign up for that. Sounds like it was over pretty quick.

I agree.

 

[KiraComplex]

You've been watching too many gore videos, dude. Stop watching that shit!

But while we're on the topic - I've seen my fair share of gore videos. I have seen videos of people dieing horribly, painfully, and tragically - and I've seen the fear on their faces.

That's one reason I want to CTB. I'm afraid of dieing a horrible, violent death full of pain and fear. If I take matters into my own hands, and end my own life, I'll have control over it, and I can make sure it ends painlessly with no fear.

gore videos make me fucking HURL! i think its the shows and games ive been playing. real life shit makes me have full blown panic attacks.

WTF is this

untreated mental illness and the want to die? idk man what site are you on

I use to back when I was 14 or 15. Every where's I looked I'd see items I could kill myself with. I had no control over it. If I closed my eyes my mind would just create it's own horror. It wasnt just "oh I can use this" my mind would play it out.

i wonder if it could also be adhd. it does count as intrusive and distracting no?
heres my thoughts:

i played modern warfare 2 recently and played the no russian mission for the first time. i started to have an anxiety attack but really wanted to play through it, because i like to see what characters go through (special interest thing abt video games) and wow. fucking horrifying, even if fake. skipped it next play through.

anyways, i started having the intrusive thoughts more. the shot to the head, collapsing on the asphalt, and bleeding out.

i played a childhood game for fun a few weeks ago, lego indiana jones for the ds. theres guns. the intrusive thoughts happen again.

i played nintendogs, and the thoughts stopped. is it because there are no weapons and that i fucking LOVE dogs?

what im thinking: the thoughts could be caused by triggers. if you have the intrusive thoughts suddenly for extended periods of time then they go away, only to happen again, consider what may be "triggering them".

sorry for the long comment.