Just want help

[HelpPlease]

i have a dream that I could pay someone and just let them help me go quickly and painlessly. I have nuerotoxicity from drugs and medications and I can no longer function or care for myself. I have been wanting this for a long long time I just can't seem to do it but I'm running out of time and need to ASAP. I haven't left the house in months and my sanity keeps leaving me more and more