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- Jun 23, 2020
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I'm just so tired of life, of this world. I wish I could leave
You'll know if/when you're ready:
Stage 1 is the "ideation" stage, during which a depressed person finds him/herself thinking about suicide more and more. However, the fear of suicide still outweighs its attraction. Therefore, the person may be thinking dark thoughts ("my family would be better off without me"), obsessing over dark music (i.e., playing the same depressing song over and over again), or expressing thoughts of death, suicide, pain, and hopelessness through artistic expression, but has not yet begun to formulate a specific plan. People in Stage 1 are not imminently lethal, even though many are involuntarily hospitalized for expressing thoughts of suicide in this stage.
Stage 2 is the "planning" stage, during which the person's dark thoughts begin to turn to formulating a specific plan for suicide. Friends and family may notice the person's depression worsening, and observe their loved one begin to withdraw from touching others or from being touched by others, or they may stop verbalizing their pain and suffering while seeming to be in more pain than ever. Stage 2 rarely lasts longer than several months because it is a very psychologically painful place to be. The person feels compelled to make a decision to suicide (thus moving into Stage 3) or not to suicide at that time; a decision that most people do not discuss with loved ones and often wrestle with in isolation.
Stage 3 begins when the suicidal person makes the decision to suicide. The moment the decision is made, it goes "unconscious" and the person goes on what we call "auto-pilot." People in Stage 3 are imminently lethal; however, they seem more "normal" than they have seemed in a long time. At this point, the depression seems to suddenly lift because the person has made the decision to die and is no longer wrestling with the decision.
I am a Stage 3
You'll know if/when you're ready:
Stage 1 is the "ideation" stage, during which a depressed person finds him/herself thinking about suicide more and more. However, the fear of suicide still outweighs its attraction. Therefore, the person may be thinking dark thoughts ("my family would be better off without me"), obsessing over dark music (i.e., playing the same depressing song over and over again), or expressing thoughts of death, suicide, pain, and hopelessness through artistic expression, but has not yet begun to formulate a specific plan. People in Stage 1 are not imminently lethal, even though many are involuntarily hospitalized for expressing thoughts of suicide in this stage.
Stage 2 is the "planning" stage, during which the person's dark thoughts begin to turn to formulating a specific plan for suicide. Friends and family may notice the person's depression worsening, and observe their loved one begin to withdraw from touching others or from being touched by others, or they may stop verbalizing their pain and suffering while seeming to be in more pain than ever. Stage 2 rarely lasts longer than several months because it is a very psychologically painful place to be. The person feels compelled to make a decision to suicide (thus moving into Stage 3) or not to suicide at that time; a decision that most people do not discuss with loved ones and often wrestle with in isolation.
Stage 3 begins when the suicidal person makes the decision to suicide. The moment the decision is made, it goes "unconscious" and the person goes on what we call "auto-pilot." People in Stage 3 are imminently lethal; however, they seem more "normal" than they have seemed in a long time. At this point, the depression seems to suddenly lift because the person has made the decision to die and is no longer wrestling with the decision.
I am a Stage 3
And after that isn't there another stage of figuring out how and when to do it? Most difficult of all for some.Stage 3 begins when the suicidal person makes the decision to suicide.
I feel that there is a lot of us who feels the same way. I am tired of waking up, feeling shit and heavy headed. I just want to fund that impulse or that one more that will send me over the edge.I'm just so tired of life, of this world. I wish I could leave
Feel this brotherI'm just so tired of life, of this world. I wish I could leave