Venting Just some music lyrics i made when feeling sad [im trash at it don't judge me]

[Ailashan]

Im alone with my thoughts
From the sunset to the dawn
The memories i fought
Keep dragging me deep down

Where did what go? Please repeat?
My broken hopes? Shattered dreams?
Guess they must have left me
Guess they found me boring

And god thinks i should go to hell
Because i tried to make it end
He thinks i should endure the pain,
Keep acting like im doing well

I see myself dying,
While laying in the dirt
And i can't stop crying,
At every single verse

Im tired to be lying,
Acting like i'm not hurt
Just because i'm hoping,
That things will not get worse

They just think that i'm weird
They just make fun of me
But i was terrified
Cause i got traumatized

Man i'm talking about my fears
The reasons i'm dropping those tears
Please don't hurt me, cry with me
Why can't you just be nice to me?

 

[misthios2040]

I feel like I lie to everyone about how happy I am. My doctors think that I am stable, but I have been actively planning my ctb method for a long time. Somehow the events in my life lined up with my methods. When I started to go camping and hiking, really, I was scoping out places I could ctb. My family thought that I was just picking up a new hobby. Fishing was a new hobby and I suck at it. Camping on the other hand allowed for me to leave the house to explore places and methods to ctb. somehow, I ended up near a lake and I'm still in school. I hate it because it is a constant reminder of how dumb I am. anyway, I like your song. it is very beautiful. I hope you get more positive encouragement in your songwriting. I feel like people do not do that enough. if you are good at something it is nice to be recognized for it.

 

[Ailashan]

I feel like I lie to everyone about how happy I am. My doctors think that I am stable, but I have been actively planning my ctb method for a long time. Somehow the events in my life lined up with my methods. When I started to go camping and hiking, really, I was scoping out places I could ctb. My family thought that I was just picking up a new hobby. Fishing was a new hobby and I suck at it. Camping on the other hand allowed for me to leave the house to explore places and methods to ctb. somehow, I ended up near a lake and I'm still in school. I hate it because it is a constant reminder of how dumb I am. anyway, I like your song. it is very beautiful. I hope you get more positive encouragement in your songwriting. I feel like people do not do that enough. if you are good at something it is nice to be recognized for it.

I'll probably ctb before july and i don't plan on seriously making songs. Thank you very much though it warms my heart that you like it <3