Just seem impossible to live on...

[unworthy_]

I just to voice out... not expecting any replies. Been sending out dms on other platform but gets ignored. But this is not important. My ex broke up with me in Dec. I am unable to heal or move on because for me to be dating is impossible. I am 39Y this year. Asian. I sabotaged the relationship and I always ended up getting dumped. I have someone who loves me but unfortunately I do not. I have ntg in my life except my immediate family and pets. Sounds silly but being dead doesn't seem like a terrible idea because at my age, I am done living. I expect my life will be the same until my last breathe. Believe me because I feel the same way after turning 30. My life has been the same after a decade. No growths, no breakthroughs. Just getting older and more heartbreaks... life is not worth living....

 

[iwantpeacenopain]

I've been there a very long time and believe me it's not worth taking your life. Things got better after finding love years later but then I got very sick and I can't enjoy the basics of life. Breathing is difficult, sitting is painful and I'm sleep deprived. It's mental torture and there's no rest or peace.