javie33
Member
- Mar 5, 2023
- 28
I'm not posting this for attention or anything like that I just want someone to listen if u want to anyway I've tried ctb atleast 5 times I've been in and out of the mental hospital several times I'm just tired of everything and everyone I've tried everything and it's not working I'm a trans man I hate even saying it I wish I was cis I hate it so fucking much I'm uncomfortable all the time no one will ever see me as a man they only see the label I'm sick of proving I'm a man to everyone they make it obvious im a woman I'll never be and actually man idk why im still trying my last attempt was sometime in January time is getting kinda mushed together I can't even be in a relationship with a man without feeling insecure about my gender bc I'm a top but I have to show it or im not a real man ill never be one im really fucking lonely I have all this friends and hoes around me but I feel alone no matter where I am I just need someone to listen I feel like I'm always just listening to other people never the other way around I've reached out so many times but no one wants to listen they just want to talk abt themselves or fuck im really alone and I've tried to get help but no one is there I feel like im constantly drowning witha bunch of people watching pushng me further I'm a drug addict and people encourage it I can't stop drinking I'm drunk 24/7 wow that's alot anyways