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okay so, i did mine in capsule form, it works for some but i personally do not recommend it as i feel that perhaps it contributed to my vomiting. so as for what i felt, genuinely it was painless, *for me* it took 5-10 minutes before disorientation started and black sparks formed in my vision, i was listening to music and it started to sound muffled, like i was under water. i can't tell you a good estimate of how long it took for me to throw up but vomited it all, and honestly that was the most "painful" part, i did feel quite warm at some point, but even in capsule for me, it was extremely quick to where i didn't even notice my heart rate or any other symptoms.
Oh that sounds incredibly peaceful, wow, that makes me feel more at ease when I eventually order my own SN, as I was scared there'd be A LOT of pain and I'd have to suffer before passing. As for the vomiting, didn't you consider taking some meds that'd stop you from vomiting? Or could you not get your hands on some?
remember, it is different for everyone! but for a few people who have failed i think they mostly experienced headaches and some stuff you mentioned. i couldn't get my hands on any as i was blocked by my lack of funds - i was on too low of a dose of quetiapine to make it an option (25mg, it needs to be 400mg consistent for 2 weeks for it to be effective). if you're concerned you might feel anxious then you should definitely try to get ahold of a benzo of a sort!:)
hello! so last time i did capsule, this time i'll do it in liquid form as i feel like it'll be a bit more reliable for me, up my dosage for quetiapine to 100-200mg from my psychiatrist so i can do 400mg for 2 weeks as i didn't use an AE last time, and then ask to be put on diazepam as i made sure in A&E that i told them it helped with my psychotic episodes/anxiety so it's on my record. as for AC i'm not sure if i'll use it as it's not required, and yes i'll wait as i have to be used to the quetiapine to act as an AE before i ctb as i want to guarantee i'll pass this time.
Talk to me buddy. To be honest I envy you in a crisis home. Nobody gives a damn if I live or die. You have a chance, a start at a new life.
i attempted an sn attempted 2019. this time i ended up here due to an impulsive suicide attempt (OD), but when i failed i was taken to hospital, but essentially they told me that it's a blessing in disguise since SN does minimal/no damage if failed and even if i didn't go to hospital i would've recovered quick. but that might be because i vomited quite fast. i agreed to being put here as i didn't want to be sectioned again. :)
i have tried for the past few years, nothing got better. since i'm taking a slower route this time (upping my quetiapine dose), i will see if i still want to die in the coming months. i don't want it to be impulsive because who knows, might get better by the time my dose is higher, might not. if not then time to ctb.
not yet! i should get it soon as i just ordered and said it'll be here friday. i know what you mean by that fear of vomiting, if you do vomit though, you can probably recover even if you choose to not go to a&e. you WILL feel like shit the next morning, expect being unable to walk, it lasts a couple hours. heartburn is a thing and i did. get some mouth sores. but other than that, i had no other symptoms that lasted more than a few weeks. i hope this eases your mind if you do happen to fail like i did.
