Method Just had a tiny sip of SN: thoughts

[Michi_Violeta]

I don't know why I got the feeling that I wanted to...make sure? See if I was able to do it? I don't know.

I took a 7mg pill of zopiclone to sleep, just like I've been doing lately, and decided to check if the powder I got was really SN. Read a post here a couple of days ago mentioning that SN should dilute into water either clear or yellow-ish. Just 10 grams into a little water. Didn't even drink a quarter of it, just two little sips. Like sipping on something you know it's too strong or hot to drink, gingerly. I didn't take any meto, had a burger and some fries two hours ago or so.

You have to let it dissolve, stir it a bit, see the little crystals disappear. It doesn't look like those science experiments on TV or anything. Just saltwater. It doesn't smell. It tastes like seawater, only even saltier. Burns a bit as it goes down, but not more than any strong liquor. Then again, it was just two little sips. My stomach feels like if I need to take an antiacid, but I don't feel like throwing up yet. I do feel lightheaded, my hands a bit tingly. This shit is strong.

DO NOT ATTEMPT USING SN OR TRY IT BEFORE FULLY COMMITTING, THIS HITS HARD AND FAST EVEN IN RIDICULOUSLY SMALL QUANTITIES AND YOU MAY DIE UNCOMFORTABLY WITHOUT FOLLOWING A PROPER PROTOCOL

I think I took it around...fuck, I should've timed it. 20 mins or so judging by a WhatsApp message I received around the time I went for a glass of milk. Not the brightest kid in chemistry class, but I think milk balanced out acids? Is SN even an acid? I digress. Y en inglés. En fin. I'll try to sleep, now I'm feeling my heart beating a little bit faster. Took an 800 pill of ibuprofen just in case. My stomach does feel weird, it probably wasn't a good idea to mix a burger, a little teriyaki sauce, and a teeny-weeny amount of literal fucking poison.

I digress again. See you tomorrow folks. Here's hoping the lack of oxygen helps me dream with my ex, now that would be beautiful...

 

[divinemistress36]

How was the taste?

 

[Michi_Violeta]

How was the taste?

Think seawater, only even saltier. Definitely not pleasant, I imagine I'd just chug the damn thing if I was actually going to kill myself. Maybe that's why the PPH recommends using so little water. It's not really anything disgusting or impossible to swallow, being odorless helps too, but it's not a taste you can ignore either.

Maybe someone her can enlighten us, would it be problematic in terms of effectiveness drinking or eating something very small just to get rid of the taste? I immediately reached and drank some lemonade, then realized I was adding acid to acid and had a little milk.

 

[divinemistress36]

Think seawater, only even saltier. Definitely not pleasant, I imagine I'd just chug the damn thing if I was actually going to kill myself. Maybe that's why the PPH recommends using so little water. It's not really anything disgusting or impossible to swallow, being odorless helps too, but it's not a taste you can ignore either.

Maybe someone her can enlighten us, would it be problematic in terms of effectiveness drinking or eating something very small just to get rid of the taste? I immediately reached and drank some lemonade, then realized I was adding acid to acid and had a little milk.

I think its ok to take a mint after

 

[needthebus]

i undeleted my account to say, just a reminder: people have likely died from testing SN. It's so incredibly risky to test things this way.

It is not an acid. Milk will not balance out the acid.

Methyl blue is the antidote. If you really just want to sleep and aren't ready to ctb, you may want to go to the ER. It's an option. I don't know or understand SN dosages and what would or wouldn't be fatal, but this seems INCREDIBLY risky unless you are okay with possibly dying right now.

Going to the ER and requesting methyl blue is something you can do. I'm not a pro-lifer, but just want to make sure you know the risks are extreme with what you just did.

Going back to trying to delete my account and being a lurker, but felt the need to say something.

 

[gothbird]

First, are you okay? Seriously. Two sips or not, SN is not something to casually test. It doesn't take much to push the body into methemoglobinemia, especially without an antiemetic or any oxygen support on hand. Lightheadedness and tingling are early signs. If you start turning blue, getting confused, or feeling like you can't breathe—go to the ER.

Now, to your questions:

Yes, SN dissolves into clear or yellowish water. The colour depends on purity, light exposure, and sometimes temperature. Taste is salty, metallic, unpleasant. Burning sensation is normal. It's not acidic though—SN is a salt, not an acid, so your milk/acid balancing theory doesn't apply. But milk or food can slow absorption slightly, which may be why symptoms haven't intensified. That said, it's still in your system.

Lemonade after SN isn't ideal. Not because of acid, but because it might worsen nausea or vomiting. And vomiting ruins everything with SN: if you purge before it absorbs, the process fails, often painfully. That's why metoclopramide is considered essential. You skipped it, even for a test. That was risky.

Taking ibuprofen doesn't do much here, by the way. It's an anti-inflammatory. It won't prevent methemoglobinemia or protect your stomach from SN damage.

As for "trying it before fully committing"—I get the impulse. I've seen others do it. But you're not sipping wine. You're testing a method that can and has killed people at far lower doses than the "recommended" 15-25g. There is no safe trial run. If you want peace, plan properly. Don't wing it. You deserve more than that.

Let me know you're okay when you wake up.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

i undeleted my account to say, just a reminder: people have likely died from testing SN. It's so incredibly risky to test things this way.

It is not an acid. Milk will not balance out the acid.

Methyl blue is the antidote. If you really just want to sleep and aren't ready to ctb, you may want to go to the ER. It's an option. I don't know or understand SN dosages and what would or wouldn't be fatal, but this seems INCREDIBLY risky unless you are okay with possibly dying right now.

Going to the ER and requesting methyl blue is something you can do. I'm not a pro-lifer, but just want to make sure you know the risks are extreme with what you just did.

Going back to trying to delete my account and being a lurker, but felt the need to say something.

Sorry for forcing your retirement and thanks for the helpful suggestions both for me and everyone. Like I said, I took two minuscule sips of what only had 10g of SN, if I had to guess I'd say I ingested one gram at best. I'm feeling less tingly and per your suggestion I'll wait at least an hour or so before going to sleep. Texted myself METHYL BLUE (AZUL DE METILENO) just in case something happens and I reach for help. My mother is in the room next door.

Nobody sane in this place will call you a pro-lifer so, again, thanks for your input! If anything, this little experience just confirms what you just said and I put above in big bold letters: SODIUM NITRITE IS NOT TO BE FUCKED WITH!

First, are you okay? Seriously. Two sips or not, SN is not something to casually test. It doesn't take much to push the body into methemoglobinemia, especially without an antiemetic or any oxygen support on hand. Lightheadedness and tingling are early signs. If you start turning blue, getting confused, or feeling like you can't breathe—go to the ER.

Now, to your questions:

Yes, SN dissolves into clear or yellowish water. The colour depends on purity, light exposure, and sometimes temperature. Taste is salty, metallic, unpleasant. Burning sensation is normal. It's not acidic though—SN is a salt, not an acid, so your milk/acid balancing theory doesn't apply. But milk or food can slow absorption slightly, which may be why symptoms haven't intensified. That said, it's still in your system.

Lemonade after SN isn't ideal. Not because of acid, but because it might worsen nausea or vomiting. And vomiting ruins everything with SN: if you purge before it absorbs, the process fails, often painfully. That's why metoclopramide is considered essential. You skipped it, even for a test. That was risky.

Taking ibuprofen doesn't do much here, by the way. It's an anti-inflammatory. It won't prevent methemoglobinemia or protect your stomach from SN damage.

As for "trying it before fully committing"—I get the impulse. I've seen others do it. But you're not sipping wine. You're testing a method that can and has killed people at far lower doses than the "recommended" 15-25g. There is no safe trial run. If you want peace, plan properly. Don't wing it. You deserve more than that.

Let me know you're okay when you wake up.

I truly appreciate your concern, specially after our discussions, kinda regretting making this thread now because I didn't think it'd alarm others and would just serve as a sort of mini-diary of the experience.

The tingling is gone, my heartbeat is now only slightly faster than normal, my skin and lips look normal. Coming close to an hour now, I'm slightly worried by the very logical fact you raised up —the food in my system slowing absorption— so I think I'll stay awake for a bit more. Took the ibuprofen because I felt a very light headache creeping up on me, but that too is gone.

I can draw from this experience stuff that was apparently obvious to most of you already: if you're reading this and have the impulse to try SN in a small dose before committing, just don't. If you're curious about the taste, smell, or immediate preparation just trust my words here. It's definitely not wine!

I'll let you know when I'm up tomorrow, thank you, and will stay up for at least an hour to monitor how I feel. I'm sorry for worrying ya! :c Oh, and I just set up an alarm for 2 hours later so I can wake up to reassess myself again.

 

[needthebus]

Sorry for forcing your retirement and thanks for the helpful suggestions both for me and everyone. Like I said, I took two minuscule sips of what only had 10g of SN, if I had to guess I'd say I ingested one gram at best. I'm feeling less tingly and per your suggestion I'll wait at least an hour or so before going to sleep. Texted myself METHYL BLUE (AZUL DE METILENO) just in case something happens and I reach for help. My mother is in the room next door.

Nobody sane in this place will call you a pro-lifer so, again, thanks for your input! If anything, this little experience just confirms what you just said and I put above in big bold letters: SODIUM NITRITE IS NOT TO BE FUCKED WITH!

I had to un-delete my account again after this.

So let me be very clear: if you wait until the situation gets worse YOU WILL LIKELY DIE.

If you are not ready to die, YOU NEED TO GO TO THE ER NOW and if you wait until later and then go "uh oh I don't feel good" and call an ambulance later YOU ARE MUCH MORE LIKELY TO DIE

Again, I don't understand dosages, but waiting right now, if you want to live, is a TERRIBLE idea. If you realize now you don't actually want to die, you should call 911 now, not in in 30 minutes when it's too late. If you want to live, CALL NOW. If you are okay with dying, you've made your choice. The world is hard sometimes.

Just know that waiting until it gets worse WILL LIKELY MEAN DEATH. If you want to live, YOU SHOULD CALL 911 NOW.

Going back to deleting my account.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I had to un-delete my account again after this.

So let me be very clear: if you wait until the situation gets worse YOU WILL LIKELY DIE.

If you are not ready to die, YOU NEED TO GO TO THE ER NOW and if you wait until later and then go "uh oh I don't feel good" and call an ambulance later YOU ARE MUCH MORE LIKELY TO DIE

Again, I don't understand dosages, but waiting right now, if you want to live, is a TERRIBLE idea. If you realize now you don't actually want to die, you should call 911 now, not in in 30 minutes when it's too late. If you want to live, CALL NOW. If you are okay with dying, you've made your choice. The world is hard sometimes.

Just know that waiting until it gets worse WILL LIKELY MEAN DEATH. If you want to live, YOU SHOULD CALL 911 NOW.

Going back to deleting my account.

Ok, I'm at a crossroads here and I'm starting to get scared so, please, be patient with me.

I don't feel too bad and I can't emphasize on how little SN I took. Didn't even fill my mouth, I'd say I took in less than 10 ml. I do trust your knowledge on the matter, but going to the ER now ill probably be VERY distressful for my family and make my life much harder.

So, at what time should I think it's critical going to the ER? (There's a hospital nearby just in case) Would inducing vomit work before it gets to that?

Almost an hour has passed at this point. I'm starting to regret this in the sense I didn't meant to die today and don't want to disturb my mother. My symptoms are still pretty under control, so much so I'm still able to write in English and I don't feel anything now.

I'm sorry everyone, I had read a couple of times here about people trying it and not dying so I thought it'd be relatively safe, didn't want to bother anyone. If you're reading this, DO NOT TRY SN BEFORE YOUR FINAL DECISION IS MADE.

UPDATE: I still feel fine, I induced vomit and very little food came out. I assume the SN was still there if there was still a bit of food. Heartbeat feels normal.

Think I wasted that zopiclone pill because I won't get a good night's sleep. I'll stay vigilant for both symptoms and comments.

I'm sorry again everyone, this was a bad idea.

 

[FishRain3469]

I completely understand your reasoning and thought process behind this. With the small amount you took, I reckon you'll be okay.. I Hope. Try and take care of yourself, thoughts and prayers to you. ♥

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I completely understand your reasoning and thought process behind this. With the small amount you took, I reckon you'll be okay.. I Hope. Try and take care of yourself, thoughts and prayers to you. ♥

Thank you. I'm still awake, not feeling anything really. I've been taking little sips of milk just to try and picture how little water with SN I took and I could only describe it really as 'a pinch' or 'a sip', not even a gulp, much less a mouthful.

I remember a thread months ago about a girl who ingested I think 5g or 10g of SN just to try and I remember she was fine afterwards, but can't remember if it involved her calling an ambulance. I forgot the thread's name and haven't been able to find it, it'd be great comfort if someone helped.

I realize @needthebus 's recommendations are wholehearted, I'm just trying to be calm right now to make the right call. If I call for help it will be very problematic in case of a false alarm, if I don't...well, I didn't mean to die to day which is why I thought I'd only take two very little sips.

Is there anything I can do to get rid of what's in my system faster?

 

[fallingtopieces]

are you experiencing any symptoms? shortness of breath?

 

[Michi_Violeta]

are you experiencing any symptoms? shortness of breath?

Just to be sure my English isn't failing me here. Could you please describe what shortness of breath means?

I feel my breathing normal. Not breathing any faster or slower than I normally do, same with my heartbeat. My fingertips look rosy. I can take a deep breath and hold it for half a minute and go back to normal breathing.

Fuck, sorry guys. I did underestimate this. Thank God I thought about just trying a minimal quantity, again, probably not even a gram. I wonder if we could make a sticky tomorrow advising against SN trial runs because it's not the first one I see here...and the anxiety is really not fun.

 

[fallingtopieces]

okay, breathing normal is good, and fingertips are not blue. so not even a little blue?
and your heart rate is okay? can you measure using your fingers and time how many pulses per minute.

any dizziness? confusion?
numbness or tingling?
blurry eyesight?

nausea or stomach problems?

safest thing of course would be to get treated with methylene blue at hospital.

 

[moonflow3r]

Just to be sure my English isn't failing me here. Could you please describe what shortness of breath means?

I feel my breathing normal. Not breathing any faster or slower than I normally do, same with my heartbeat. My fingertips look rosy. I can take a deep breath and hold it for half a minute and go back to normal breathing.

Fuck, sorry guys. I did underestimate this. Thank God I thought about just trying a minimal quantity, again, probably not even a gram. I wonder if we could make a sticky tomorrow advising against SN trial runs because it's not the first one I see here...and the anxiety is really not fun.

Glad to hear you're safe, keep an eye out for any weird symptoms. The sticky would be a real good idea, hope the mods see this.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

okay, breathing normal is good, and fingertips are not blue. so not even a little blue?
and your heart rate is okay? can you measure using your fingers and time how many pulses per minute.

any dizziness? confusion?
numbness or tingling?
blurry eyesight?

nausea or stomach problems?

safest thing of course would be to get treated with methylene blue at hospital.

Thanks a bunch man for helping me navigate this so I make the right calls.

No dizziness, no confusion, I can still remember proper punctuation and English grammar. Went all over the apartment in silence to look for one of those oximeters we bought during covid, but couldn't find it.

Nothing feels numb, nothing tingles.

Each moment I feel the inital burning sensation in my stomach disappearing, maybe inducing vomit helped. No nausea.

Close to two and a half hours after ingestion.

 

[gothbird]

I truly appreciate your concern, specially after our discussions, kinda regretting making this thread now because I didn't think it'd alarm others and would just serve as a sort of mini-diary of the experience.

The tingling is gone, my heartbeat is now only slightly faster than normal, my skin and lips look normal. Coming close to an hour now, I'm slightly worried by the very logical fact you raised up —the food in my system slowing absorption— so I think I'll stay awake for a bit more. Took the ibuprofen because I felt a very light headache creeping up on me, but that too is gone.

I can draw from this experience stuff that was apparently obvious to most of you already: if you're reading this and have the impulse to try SN in a small dose before committing, just don't. If you're curious about the taste, smell, or immediate preparation just trust my words here. It's definitely not wine!

I'll let you know when I'm up tomorrow, thank you, and will stay up for at least an hour to monitor how I feel. I'm sorry for worrying ya! :c Oh, and I just set up an alarm for 2 hours later so I can wake up to reassess myself again.

No need to apologise. I'd rather be a little alarmed than find out someone slipped into unconsciousness alone after a "test run." You didn't waste anyone's time.

I'm glad the symptoms eased. That's a good sign. But yes—food does slow absorption, and sometimes that means a delayed onset that sneaks up when you think you're in the clear. Staying up, monitoring, and setting that alarm was smart. Keep checking in with yourself. If anything shifts—tight chest, dizziness, weird colors in your vision, blue lips or nails, or difficulty breathing—don't hesitate. At that point, it's not a moral failure to seek help.

I appreciate your honesty here. You're right: for anyone reading, don't test SN. It's not a tasting menu. Even small amounts can push the body further than you meant.

Please do update when you're up again. I'll be around.

Take care of your body tonight—even if you're not sure you want to keep it.

 

[fallingtopieces]

oximeter would be helpful but fingers do look okay.
you can do a pulse check to test for regular heartbeat

Spoiler: pulse check with fingers

 

[Michi_Violeta]

oximeter would be helpful but fingers do look okay.
you can do a pulse check to test for regular heartbeat

Spoiler: pulse check with fingers

I've never been good at this, but I think measured 50 once and around 65 the second time while sitting relaxed. Breathing normal.

Can't thank you enough for this!

No need to apologise. I'd rather be a little alarmed than find out someone slipped into unconsciousness alone after a "test run." You didn't waste anyone's time.

I'm glad the symptoms eased. That's a good sign. But yes—food does slow absorption, and sometimes that means a delayed onset that sneaks up when you think you're in the clear. Staying up, monitoring, and setting that alarm was smart. Keep checking in with yourself. If anything shifts—tight chest, dizziness, weird colors in your vision, blue lips or nails, or difficulty breathing—don't hesitate. At that point, it's not a moral failure to seek help.

I appreciate your honesty here. You're right: for anyone reading, don't test SN. It's not a tasting menu. Even small amounts can push the body further than you meant.

Please do update when you're up again. I'll be around.

Take care of your body tonight—even if you're not sure you want to keep it.

You're too kind, thanks a bunch! I still feel...well, a bit embarrassed, hence the need to apologize, but besides the initial shock I feel the worst has passed. I can't emphasize enough for anyone reading this, particularly those who find this thread later on, that I took a very small dose. Like I said, I've been trying to replicate it drinking other fluids right now and it's the sort of amount that you wouldn't notice if drank from a bottle. The two hour alarm I had set is almost done and I'm fully awake. Maybe I'll try sleeping in half an our or so, but I'll have another alarm for the next hour.

Chest feels fine. I just spun around in place like ten times, felt a bit dizzy while doing it, but it passed immediately. No weird colors, fingers still looking good though I do need a manicure soon. Breathing is normal.

For better or for worse I'm an honest guy so, yeah, I think I got this wrong and I'm glad I was cautious enough to both ingest a tiny amount and to seek help here. As always, this community just goes above and beyond when it comes to support and understanding.

Thank you very much again

 

[fallingtopieces]

i think 60-100 is normal range for at rest heart rate. athletes can be as low as 50.
you can do pulse check a few times while sitting relaxed and get an average. you get better at it when you find the right spot. remember to check for irregular heart beat pattern also (in the video tapping the table), not just the number.

i would monitor for symptoms daily, like breathing trouble, dizziness, regular heartbeat, nausea, stomach issues, feeling tired or weak. and check for regular heartbeat pattern.

drink lots of water and drinks with electrolytes.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

i think 60-100 is normal range for at rest heart rate. athletes can be as low as 50.
you can do pulse check a few times while sitting relaxed and get an average. you get better at it when you find the right spot. remember to check for irregular heart beat pattern also (in the video tapping the table), not just the number.

i would monitor for symptoms daily, like breathing trouble, dizziness, regular heartbeat, nausea, stomach issues, feeling tired or weak. and check for regular heartbeat pattern.

drink lots of water and drinks with electrolytes.

You're an absolute savior, huge thanks for the follow-up, really! For a moment I was afraid I'd end up in a situation where I wouldn't be in control and was prepared to go to the hospital nearby, but so far so good. I'll drink a bottle of water and try sleeping when I hit the three hours and a half mark: considering the tiny amount, the vomit, and the time I think I'm safe now.

Thanks to everyone in this thread and, again, apologies for getting you worried.

 

[bananaolympus]

I did that too for curiosity not long ago i posted also my experience, lightheaded too a couple of throwups after minutes of drinking but nothing painful yeah strong saltiness, i think i did 5 grams it surely is lethal following the protocol

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I did that too for curiosity not long ago i posted also my experience, lightheaded too a couple of throwups after minutes of drinking but nothing painful yeah strong saltiness, i think i did 5 grams it surely is lethal following the protocol

I think I missed yours, but if anything I think it supports the idea of making a sticky, hopefully not of this thread because I'll look like an idiot

We're already sure from multiple accounts about taste, physical sensations, immediate effects. Nothing new someone can find by this trials that they couldn't find out testing their SN by safer means. The thing with experiences like your or mine is that we may create a false sense of safety, like the one I had before tonight, and we're dealing with something VERY effective.

 

[gothbird]

You're too kind, thanks a bunch! I still feel...well, a bit embarrassed, hence the need to apologize, but besides the initial shock I feel the worst has passed. I can't emphasize enough for anyone reading this, particularly those who find this thread later on, that I took a very small dose. Like I said, I've been trying to replicate it drinking other fluids right now and it's the sort of amount that you wouldn't notice if drank from a bottle. The two hour alarm I had set is almost done and I'm fully awake. Maybe I'll try sleeping in half an our or so, but I'll have another alarm for the next hour.

Chest feels fine. I just spun around in place like ten times, felt a bit dizzy while doing it, but it passed immediately. No weird colors, fingers still looking good though I do need a manicure soon. Breathing is normal.

For better or for worse I'm an honest guy so, yeah, I think I got this wrong and I'm glad I was cautious enough to both ingest a tiny amount and to seek help here. As always, this community just goes above and beyond when it comes to support and understanding.

Thank you very much again

Don't be embarrassed. You were honest, cautious, and you listened to your body! That's more than most people do in a panic. You didn't get it wrong, you just tested a line that doesn't need testing. And now you know.

I'm really glad you're feeling okay.

For anyone reading this later: a "small sip" is still not harmless. SN isn't something to experiment with. It's not a drink, it's a chemical with very real consequences, even at low amounts. You got lucky this time, and I'm relieved for that.

I'm glad you posted. This community shows up, every time, because most of us know exactly what it's like to walk that line between needing answers and being too scared to ask.

Sleep if you can. And if not, just rest.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Don't be embarrassed. You were honest, cautious, and you listened to your body! That's more than most people do in a panic. You didn't get it wrong, you just tested a line that doesn't need testing. And now you know.

I'm really glad you're feeling okay.

For anyone reading this later: a "small sip" is still not harmless. SN isn't something to experiment with. It's not a drink, it's a chemical with very real consequences, even at low amounts. You got lucky this time, and I'm relieved for that.

I'm glad you posted. This community shows up, every time, because most of us know exactly what it's like to walk that line between needing answers and being too scared to ask.

Sleep if you can. And if not, just rest.

Thankfully I'm able to remain calm under time-critical circumstances and, thank GOD didn't underestimate the SN even more than I did. My alarm ringed, woke me up, I was feeling some stomach discomfort, but no difficulty breathing, dizziness, or a faster heartbeat. Head doesn't feel light, skin isn't tingling.

Tried to sleep it off for the first few mins, then felt it getting really uncomfortable so I got up to the bathroom and vomited. This time it was much more than the last time, burned a bit, but I definitely got everything out by now.

It's scary to think what someone would feel without following the adequate protocol. Words fail me at expressing how little SN I tried and yet its effects are VERY real, VERY immediate, and VERY hard to manage.

Thanks for your reply and special thanks again to @fallingtopieces. My stomach feels a bit off now, I took an anti-acid and have been drinking just water since I vomited. Tomorrow my mother leaves for work early and first thing I'll do when I wake up will be buying some better hydration. Set up another alarm for two hours. The worst seems to have passed in terms of danger, but it seems it's just starting in terms of discomfort until I get it completely out of my system.

EDIT/UPDATE: remained awake for a while after my last post. Felt the need to vomit some more. Tried to control it at first, but I didn't managed and the first time I vomited on the toilet seat cover. Gonna have to clean that up tomorrow, questions will be asked

Mostly water, I think my stomach is sensitive and tried to get rid of everything. Feeling better now, no burning sensation at all. Fingers looking fine, breathing is fine. But fuck, this wasn't a fun night at all.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Glad you are ok, take it easy, and thanks for sharing. Very scary!

 

[Michi_Violeta]

4 a.m.

Around, what, 6 hours after ingestion? Had another alarm set up to wake up and see how I was feeling. My stomach felt upset again, tried to sleep, but couldn't resist vomiting some more. I honestly thought nothing more was in my stomach, but my body seems to think all the water I've drunk had to come out too.

If you want to die, you want to die. If you're even a bit on the fence, don't touch your SN unless it's for a purity test.

 

[2messdup]

4 a.m.

Around, what, 6 hours after ingestion? Had another alarm set up to wake up and see how I was feeling. My stomach felt upset again, tried to sleep, but couldn't resist vomiting some more. I honestly thought nothing more was in my stomach, but my body seems to think all the water I've drunk had to come out too.

If you want to die, you want to die. If you're even a bit on the fence, don't touch your SN unless it's for a purity test.

Did your stomach hurt a lot at any time, or mostly the nausea? Hope you don't mind me asking. Just getting my head prepared.

 

[rozeske]

Hope you feel better. It's not a great feeling dying on the day you didn't intended to even if the goal eventually is just that. If you feel the need to go to the ER you don't need to confess it was intentional. The amount you would have in your system and the damage wouldn't be suspicious enough for that. You can just tell them you ate cured meat and are not feeling well after that. It will be ruled accedental.

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Did your stomach hurt a lot at any time, or mostly the nausea? Hope you don't mind me asking. Just getting my head prepared.

I wouldn't describe it as pain or nausea, it didn't feel like a stomach ache and it wasn't accompanied by any dizziness. I'd say it was more similar to when you feel acid reflux. I felt the impulse to vomit and decided to act on it, but it wasn't the uncontrollable projectile vomiting kind of thing.

This experience may not be worth much for an actual suicide if you follow the proper protocol. With the proper fasting, anti-emetics, and SPECIALLY with benzos...you wouldn't feel any of this.

Hope you feel better. It's not a great feeling dying on the day you didn't intended to even if the goal eventually is just that. If you feel the need to go to the ER you don't need to confess it was intentional. The amount you would have in your system and the damage wouldn't be suspicious enough for that. You can just tell them you ate cured meat and are not feeling well after that. It will be ruled accedental.

Thanks for the suggestions. I'm curious about the term "damage", if there's any precedents, as far as I've read SN failed attempts have no long-term effects, but maybe this is all part of that false sense of safety I felt and that I think we should address as a community.

I'm alone with my mother this week so I wouldn't want to worry her even more than she already is unless it's absolutely necessary. She was up by the last time I vomited and made some tea. Fuck my life and its ironies: so much love on certain aspects, absolutely none in others.