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jefferson

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Nov 15, 2019
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FedEx delivered to my home address instead of the depot I requested and my grandparents took it inside. I got the package but I'm going to have to explain what it was because they're suspicious of me now. I think I've come up with a decent excuse.

I got 1kg because that was the minimum order from this particular vendor.

My meto is waiting for me at the pharmacy, I lied about taking it in the past to get the script. I could get benzos with a walk in visit I'm sure if I just show my paperwork from my recent psyc ward stay.

Maybe I'll be dead before next weekend. A small part of me wants to give proper therapy a try but I also don't want to lose access to my CTB or end up in a ward again. My anxiety at this point is absolutely crushing and I just don't want to wake up.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

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Sep 24, 2020
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I also just wish to not wake, but anyway I wish you the best in whatever you decide.
 
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Nov 29, 2024
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FedEx delivered to my home address instead of the depot I requested and my grandparents took it inside. I got the package but I'm going to have to explain what it was because they're suspicious of me now. I think I've come up with a decent excuse.

I got 1kg because that was the minimum order from this particular vendor.

My meto is waiting for me at the pharmacy, I lied about taking it in the past to get the script. I could get benzos with a walk in visit I'm sure if I just show my paperwork from my recent psyc ward stay.

Maybe I'll be dead before next weekend. A small part of me wants to give proper therapy a try but I also don't want to lose access to my CTB or end up in a ward again. My anxiety at this point is absolutely crushing and I just don't want to wake up.
If you celebrate Christmas, it being a present or something could be a decent excuse depending on package size?
 
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in canada to can i pm you? been reading lots of threads and the "y" search engine with zero luck
in canada too i mean
 
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I wish you good luck and hope that you're grandparent's won't find out what it is before you decide to take it.
 

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