Just existing at this point

[NotOkay_]

*sigh. I wish I would've CTB much sooner , instead of letting things get sooo severe. I guess i needed some kind of justification to say i held on for as long as possible, not that it even matters/will matter. Also feel free to send me a message :)

 

[signifying nothing]

Yes, I support letting go of the need to justify things, to anyone, including yourself. Sometimes things just are as they are. No reason, nothing to be done about it.

 

[NotOkay_]

Yes, I support letting go of the need to justify things, to anyone, including yourself. Sometimes things just are as they are. No reason, nothing to be done about it.

Exactly. I think it's social programming tbh

 

[KolK]

Hang in there, it's tough, I know. :(

 

[issyishere]

Im just taking it one day at a time. My hail mary at getting better is on the 14th and if it doesn't get better I have another permanent solution i guess.

 

[Water-Lily]

I feel this. Life happens and makes me want to blow my freaking brains out

that or gorge myself on junk food either way it sucks

 

[NotOkay_]

I feel this. Life happens and makes me want to blow my freaking brains out

that or gorge myself on junk food either way it sucks

I've been eating loads of junk too

 

[Antigonish]

You're doing allot better than me. I spend most of my time in the fantasy world I've invented inside my head.

 

[NotOkay_]

You're doing allot better than me. I spend most of my time in the fantasy world I've invented inside my head.

Same haha, been looking at cute homes on Pinterest

 

[Raminiki]

*sigh. I wish I would've CTB much sooner , instead of letting things get sooo severe. I guess i needed some kind of justification to say i held on for as long as possible, not that it even matters/will matter. Also feel free to send me a message :)

Same. I'm still waiting for that excuse to say 'enough is enough' and like you, I've continued existing as things only get worse over the years. Sometimes I want to CTB out of sheer apathy and inertia.

Nothing does matter, in the end. There won't be some great climax and satisfying denouement like the movies promise. You just have to decide on a day like any other day that it's time to let go.

I'm struggling to do that. Best wishes to you. And my empathy.

 

[Pravesh]

Sometimes that's all we can do friend, just exist.
We are here then we die everything else in between is "just existing" some people have more fun doing it and distract themselves with delusions but ultimately we all just exist and then seize to anymore.