Just drove down to the reservoir

[awfullife]

Its my second time driving down to the future scene of the crime. I think I'm capable of doing it but I'm always in good spirits when I'm down there and it freaks me out.

I havent purchased my gun yet but I will soon. So many people will be so surprised but then when they really think critically about it, they will get it...kind of.

-Career shot
-finances shot
- live with elderly father
-see kids once a month
-41 years old
- no chance at romance as I'm an over the road trucker.

The last 5 years have been awful. If there is a hell, I will take my chances that it isnt as bad as what I've been through.

Peace to you.

 

[SheJumped]

I hope your child is old enough to understand why before you do this. It's why I haven't moved forward with catching the bus.

 

[sadworld]

I think that's gonna be really hard for your child...

 

[awfullife]

I think it will help that I moved away 2 years ago. Life is hard. They are 8 and 10. Trust me it will be worse if I move up there I have then on weekends with zero funds.