Jumping while high on edible weed

[I'm exhausted]

I've been doing some research and found out at least one person have jumped off a balcony to his death after eating more than recommended portion of edible weed (cookies/brownies). It sounds good. Have some good food to before jumping. What do you think?

Edit: Also if it fails you can say you didn't know that it takes time to feel the effect which can avoid you landing in the psych ward. Just say you wanted to feel good from feeling so low.

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

Edibles used to just make me feel like my IQ dropped 80 points. But if you overdose on THC this way you might not have the cordination or thought capacity to jump. It could very well be thought of as an accident though.

 

[Kodama]

Like the idea

 

[Brick In The Wall]

The government is gona be like "See we told you it was true!"

 

[I'm exhausted]

The article i read said the guy who jumped was paranoid and people have experienced hightened anxiety. As for me, I've smoked and only had cbd gummies at a recommended dosage but when I was high from smoking I didn't feel much resistance just lots of munchies and my anxiety was very loud in my head but I was at a friend's place so I couldn't do anything but if I wasn't I'm thinking this may work. I'm already an anxious person so it may help me especially with SI. I was thinking after I eat I can be around the bridge and then jump. This way if I lose coordination then maybe I can successfully drown as I know how to swim. I prefer not to jump, I wanted to go more peacefully like nitrogen but I'm scared of brain damage if I fail though i don't want to be alive if I'm in coma or on life support. I've been thinking about partial (I actually love choking myself, i get this euphoric feeling) or SN. Partial may be the easiest because getting nitrogen and mask or SN may he difficult. I don't know but I want to go, but I don't want to do it alone. Any suggestions?

Thank you for your input.

 

[Fragile]

Not a good idea at all in my opinion.

weed edibles make you overthink the shit out of everything specially if you have anxiety about anything at the moment, then it gets magnified by 10, and since SI is basically anxiety telling you to stay alive then you can see why that's a problem.
plus they take up to an hour to kick in and in that time you'll be overthinking every single thing that comes to mind.

for jumping you need to lower your inhibitions and feel VERY sure about what you are going to do, benzos and alcohol are perfect for this purpose but not in extreme doses of course.

trust me, from 2017 to 2018 i did edibles almost daily and have seen many people freak the fuck out from them. and having a panic attack while on weed is one of those things that i wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy, i can't imagine doing them just before CTB.

 

[Kodama]

Should look like one of the best 6 feet under death scene (5'42)

It will be so simple

 

[I'm exhausted]

Not a good idea at all in my opinion.

weed edibles make you overthink the shit out of everything specially if you have anxiety about anything at the moment, then it gets magnified by 10, and since SI is basically anxiety telling you to stay alive then you can see why that's a problem.
plus they take up to an hour to kick in and in that time you'll be overthinking every single thing that comes to mind.

for jumping you need to lower your inhibitions and feel VERY sure about what you are going to do, benzos and alcohol are perfect for this purpose but not in extreme doses of course.

trust me, from 2017 to 2018 i did edibles almost daily and have seen many people freak the fuck out from them. and having a panic attack while on weed is one of those things that i wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy, i can't imagine doing them just before CTB.

I

I understand. I already do experience panic attacks and I'm also heart broken. I was diagnosed with severe OCD, MDD, GAD, PTSD, emotion dyregulation, panic disorder, BPD, ocpd though mild, trauma, AGORAPHOBIA and MYSOPHOBIA.

Experience pain in my eyes, feet, tmj
Then nausea, hyperventilation, meltdowns, rumination, dizziness, lightheadedness, sometimes I pass out that I was hoping the edibles would help me by pushing me. Because after experiencing all that I always wish I could die. I don't know where I can get benzos because I don't have a valid ID to see a Dr. Partially because my ex roommate fucked me over and partially because I'm homeless.

 

[Fragile]

I

I understand. I already do experience panic attacks and I'm also heart broken. I was diagnosed with severe OCD, MDD, GAD, PTSD, emotion dyregulation, panic disorder, BPD, ocpd though mild, trauma, AGORAPHOBIA and MYSOPHOBIA.

Experience pain in my eyes, feet, tmj
Then nausea, hyperventilation, meltdowns, rumination, dizziness, lightheadedness, sometimes I pass out that I was hoping the edibles would help me by pushing me. Because after experiencing all that I always wish I could die. I don't know where I can get benzos because I don't have a valid ID to see a Dr. Partially because my ex roommate fucked me over and partially because I'm homeless.

I'm sorry that you are in so much pain.

you can always get some hard liquor if you need a substance that lowers your inhibition and give you a final push, i still preffer benzos because they come without the nausea and pain that alcohol gives, but it still works.
and you can act like it was an accident if it fails, many people have died in accident by falling from tall places while drunk, but failing to CTB by jumping is definitely not something that you want, it could cripple you to the point that you won't be able to attempt again.

 

[Wreck-it-Riley]

Weed is basically my anti-CTB. When i feel like cutting, i smoke and i can put it off for a couple hours. I too have a long string of lettings assigned to me, pretty much the same list. Weed helps but i don't think it will make you able to CTB. Probably make you worse and more afraid in the moments.

 

[I'm exhausted]

I'm sorry that you are in so much pain.

you can always get some hard liquor if you need a substance that lowers your inhibition and give you a final push, i still preffer benzos because they come without the nausea and pain that alcohol gives, but it still works.
and you can act like it was an accident if it fails, many people have died in accident by falling from tall places while drunk, but failing to CTB by jumping is definitely not something that you want, it could cripple you to the point that you won't be able to attempt again.

I'm sorry that you are in so much pain.

you can always get some hard liquor if you need a substance that lowers your inhibition and give you a final push, i still preffer benzos because they come without the nausea and pain that alcohol gives, but it still works.
and you can act like it was an accident if it fails, many people have died in accident by falling from tall places while drunk, but failing to CTB by jumping is definitely not something that you want, it could cripple you to the point that you won't be able to attempt again.

Thank you. I'm thinking about posting my life story about how I ended up here before I go. But it's hard to talk about when all this was because of multiple assaults both physical and sexual, sexual harrassments and near death. And my paranoia stems from all this. People scamming and calculated opportunists. My sentimental items being stolen. My life is falling apart. I've been trying to get treatment for six years just to be going around in a loop and almost a year being homeless when I was told that I would be able to get housing assistance by mid summer. I've had therapists ghost on me. I don't want to suffer anymore. Now my stuff would be auctioned off because I can't afford the payments. I'd rather not be here when it happens. I know what my dreams are and my purpose in life is, which is to rescue animals in need but how can I when I can't even rescue myself. I've tried so hard to get the help I need, practically begging and yet I only get a bandaid on a badly infected deeply stabbed wound that got worse during the years I wasn't properly treated. It's like having a cancer patient treated by a general practitioner or telling a leg amputee to just walk because they were able to do I before.

I'm thinking now maybe I can get so high to a point where my body is heavy and sleepy and partially hang. That sounds more realistic?

Ugh i think some parts got erased. My fears are making mistakes, forgetting, dropping and losing things, contamination fear and becoming a victim of nonconsensual pornography