Method Jumping height

[Gaga786]

I hate the fact that I'm even asking regarding this method, but I have no other method available. I'm at a hotel which has 12 floors. If I jump from the 12th floor, is there a 100 percent chance I won't survive and that it'll be a painless death. I don't want this method to fail and possibly be paralysed.

 

[27clubBRIAN]

I hate the fact that I'm even asking regarding this method, but I have no other method available. I'm at a hotel which has 12 floors. If I jump from the 12th floor, is there a 100 percent chance I won't survive and that it'll be a painless death. I don't want this method to fail and possibly be paralysed.

Yeah I thought of jumping from about that height , the thing is with this method is that it all depends on how you land and you're not gonna have really any control of once you've committed and you are mid air because of SI . Regardless , people jump from less height all the time and succeed in CTB. Wish you peace

 

[eternalflame]

Have you tried medication or theraphy? Do you have family?
The problem with jumping is that it's difficult to control your flight.

 

[Gaga786]

Have you tried medication or theraphy? Do you have family?
The problem with jumping is that it's difficult to control your flight.

Yes, I'm 19 years old, I have tried everything. I was on medication since I was 13 years old, got put in a psych ward by a crazy gaslighting psychiatrist at the age of 14 , was sexually assaulted at a young age, bullied tremendously in school, neglected by parents ( my father refused to provide me with any affection or love. Ended up being gay in a Muslim majority country and my low intelligence permits me from doing anything. I am practically useless

Have you tried medication or theraphy? Do you have family?
The problem with jumping is that it's difficult to control your flight.

Is there a to control your flight ?

 

[eternalflame]

I see. I can realate to some of that stuff.
Can't you migrate to western country and be gay there?
Are there some muslim psychiatrist books you could read?
I think every suicide method carries a risk of failing and becomind vegetable.
Do you have some hobbies? I wish you the best.
Are your grandparents still alive, do you have siblings, can you talk to them if your father is unavaible?

 

[Gaga786]

I see. I can realate to some of that stuff.
Can't you migrate to western country and be gay there?
Are there some muslim psychiatrist books you could read?
I think every suicide method carries a risk of failing and becomind vegetable.
Do you have some hobbies? I wish you the best.
Are your grandparents still alive, do you have siblings, can you talk to them if your father is unavaible?

My sisters are there and I'm attached to them. My mother would be distraught if i CTB, but the reality is I still don't want to be here anymore. Every single day of existence is torture for me, and I want it to end soon. I am tired of fighting. I no longer want to be a nuisance and burden on anyone. I want to go out on my own terms and no one can force me to stay anymore. No one cares

 

[eternalflame]

It seems your family will care. I feel like a a bag of bones myself. Try to talk with your mother.

 

[Gaga786]

All she does is cry and say take medication. She wants to forcefully medicate me to keep me alive which is really cruel. It's up to me because I'm not gonna stay alive any longer just for herand she has done messed up things to me in which brought me here in the first place. What about my suffering ?? How can people just force someone else to live just for them. It's like torture

 

[eternalflame]

I see, my mother also cries and thinks medication will magicly heal me, she doesn't see fault in herself.
Do you have some uncles? CAn you move to another country? You seem to speak good english, maybe you can move to UK or USA, they should pay better for simple jobs than in your country.

 

[Gaga786]

Here in Pakistan, our relatives are the most fakest people you will ever meet. They pretend they care but it's all w social facade. I don't want anything to do with them because my parents prioritised their own brother and sisters over their own son. Moving to another country is not an option for me

 

[eternalflame]

There are lot of Pakistanis in UK, can't you find some relatives or friends?
What dod your parents do to make you think that way?

 

[Gaga786]

I always felt my father loved my relatives children's a lot more than me. There were many instances where my father cared for his sisters and brother while not giving a shit about his children and wife. My mother developed depression as a result. His father died when he was young so he had to be the breadwinner of the family and take care of all of his siblings by starting up a business and being a self made. What hurts me the most is his siblings leached off of his hardwork at the expense of his own wife and children.

 

[eternalflame]

I see. Dou you work somewhere or help with the house?

 

[Gaga786]

I see. Dou you work somewhere or help with the house?

I can literally do nothing. I'm completely useless. I can't even tie my own shoelaces because i just can't understand how to. My intelligence is that low
All I do is lie around in bed for the whole day

 

[eternalflame]

Check this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Developmental_coordination_disorder
Harry Potter actor DAniel RAdcliffe suffers from this.

 

[Anónimo]

Man, for being from an Arabic-speaking country, your English is perfect. I'd say there is hope, I'm also affected by my country and I hope I can move out some day. I'd say don't hurt yourself, but of course, I won't tell you what to do as the choice is yours, just think it through because some people, for some random reason have survived very high falls. I'm not saying it to scare you, but to make you aware.