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albert_camus
Absurdist
- Jan 8, 2024
- 21
Hey, I'm 22 years old, my relationship has just ended, I've been getting more and more nervous, stressed and tense for weeks, I can no longer sleep, eat and drink normally, I have unbelievable fears about my future and existence and I think I won't be able to get my life together or ever be happy. Until recently, I was still interested in and enjoyed my hobbies and my double degree, but now I put myself under so much pressure... I should be finished by now, I'm too slow, I have to get good grades, my English should be better, I should only need a maximum of 2 more years and I should actually be working at least part-time... but all that is hardly possible (for others maybe, but not for me) and then the question arises again whether I will be able to do anything with my degrees, if I would even get that far...
I would have to do at least a Master's degree or then an apprenticeship, but what am I studying for in the latter case? And I'm actually interested in my double degree, at least normally.
I actually wanted to wait until my parents were no longer alive before I committed suicide, but I don't think I'll be able to do it. Of course, they're also suffering from my condition. Besides, I'm a disappointment anyway.
Now my question: Will I die if I jump from 100 meters? The ground would be forest or rock. Does anyone have any tips for an almost certain death?
Thank you
I would have to do at least a Master's degree or then an apprenticeship, but what am I studying for in the latter case? And I'm actually interested in my double degree, at least normally.
I actually wanted to wait until my parents were no longer alive before I committed suicide, but I don't think I'll be able to do it. Of course, they're also suffering from my condition. Besides, I'm a disappointment anyway.
Now my question: Will I die if I jump from 100 meters? The ground would be forest or rock. Does anyone have any tips for an almost certain death?
Thank you