KleinerWolf
Account Wipe.
- Apr 30, 2020
- 2,700
In January I quit my previous job for a more advanced position and it didn't work out.
So I quit and corona hit and was depressed and unable to connect another job,
After several month in depression etc, lately started the-applying for jobs,
however it had inevitably made my less hireable since I only worked 3 months previously and hopped too early, and I just decided to lie about my work history and instead of 3 months I said 1 year.
Due to the 10 months gap while I was not working,
my previously job's morning starting time, coworker names start to become forgotten,
In a small tacitly, surprising that everyone know everybody and
the hiring manager ask me what time We start in the morning,
Or if I worked with someone,
of course I did but 10 months gap it's as if I never worked here,
Answering questions wrong and sounding suspicious,
to be honest I dug my own grave with the job hopping
and I job hop because immigration requires a certain job title, and hourly pay,
Hence I was a try hard all these time,
To be honest, the job situation for me is not good,
mostly due to my inconsistent work history.
There's depression and insecurity at play.
Things go hand in hand,
But even if I get a job,
It doesn't solve my problem.
I'm just too desperate for immigration.
Job and immigration go hand in hand,
And without a sense of security,
I just keep making it worse,
It's a vicious chicken and egg cycle.
Honestly,
If I commit suicide in late December or January,
I had it coming.
I'm still upset what Chinese citizenship does to me,
But playing the victim or remaining powerless isn't going to solve jackshit.
to be fair, it might just be better I kill myself,
Because it's easier and it's instant gratification
(sorry about the rant).
So I quit and corona hit and was depressed and unable to connect another job,
After several month in depression etc, lately started the-applying for jobs,
however it had inevitably made my less hireable since I only worked 3 months previously and hopped too early, and I just decided to lie about my work history and instead of 3 months I said 1 year.
Due to the 10 months gap while I was not working,
my previously job's morning starting time, coworker names start to become forgotten,
In a small tacitly, surprising that everyone know everybody and
the hiring manager ask me what time We start in the morning,
Or if I worked with someone,
of course I did but 10 months gap it's as if I never worked here,
Answering questions wrong and sounding suspicious,
to be honest I dug my own grave with the job hopping
and I job hop because immigration requires a certain job title, and hourly pay,
Hence I was a try hard all these time,
To be honest, the job situation for me is not good,
mostly due to my inconsistent work history.
There's depression and insecurity at play.
Things go hand in hand,
But even if I get a job,
It doesn't solve my problem.
I'm just too desperate for immigration.
Job and immigration go hand in hand,
And without a sense of security,
I just keep making it worse,
It's a vicious chicken and egg cycle.
Honestly,
If I commit suicide in late December or January,
I had it coming.
I'm still upset what Chinese citizenship does to me,
But playing the victim or remaining powerless isn't going to solve jackshit.
to be fair, it might just be better I kill myself,
Because it's easier and it's instant gratification
(sorry about the rant).
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