Venting Jealous of the dead

[TheGoodGuy]

Is anyone else jealous of the dead? I mean they are dead so they got out of the horrible game that is life.

I mostly feel this way when kids die or pre-teens die. My childhood was paradise and had I been hit by a vehicle and died at the age of like 11-12yo that would have been perfect, My childhood ended at 12yo so to have ended my life at the end of paradise before descending into hell would´ve been wonderful.

 

[Justanotherconsumer]

I have felt admiration on occasion when passing cemeteries.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I have felt admiration on occasion when passing cemeteries.

I don´t know what to admire unless you know that people who are buried their killed themselves, but I do get jealous when I walk past a cemetery.

 

[lv-gras]

Is anyone else jealous of the dead? I mean they are dead so they got out of the horrible game that is life.

I mostly feel this way when kids die or pre-teens die. My childhood was paradise and had I been hit by a vehicle and died at the age of like 11-12yo that would have been perfect, My childhood ended at 12yo so to have ended my life at the end of paradise before descending into hell would´ve been wonderful.

yes, but no particular things about age

 

[existenceissuffering]

I feel the exact same way. I am always really jealous of people who die young, the younger they are, the more jealous I am of them.

 

[DeathBecomesMe]

yes, but no particular things about age

I've always felt that the dead are lucky in a way, I wouldn't say I feel jealous, maybe a little.

I don't like it when people die too young, for humans, under 15 irks me a bit. I think it's important that every living thing develop to adulthood if possible.

Thereafter, if they die, even though 99% of the time not of their own choosing, I see their death as an act of bravery, something they had to get out of the way. Like an oral presentation at school. Even if they clung to life and didn't want to die. Everyone is scared to die, it's innate, and therefore the act of dying is always a brave one, a fate that everyone must suffer at some point. In the grand scheme of things, all of us here will be dead within 50 years or so. At some point, maybe soon, maybe only in 50 years, we will have our moment of bravery..

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I feel the exact same way. I am always really jealous of people who die young, the younger they are, the more jealous I am of them.

Thank you for understanding. Although I think there is a limit it´s not like I get more jealous if a 6 year old died instead of a 10 year old that is actually sad because that 6yo could´ve had at least 4 years more of being a child. But yeah I would definitely be more jealous of a 15yo dying than a 25 year old because their pain and suffering ended before it could get even worse.

 

[throwaway123]

Yes I'm jealous. I think everyone here is.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I'm not jealous of people who have died when they didn't want to/who didn't have a choice in their death, but I am jealous of people who have successfully CTB. I'm jealous of my friend who CTB in August, but if anyone IRL ever found that out I'd be seen as a really, really sick person..

 

[wezel]

I am no longer jealous of anybody, dead or alive.

 

[azucaramargo]

Is anyone else jealous of the dead? I mean they are dead so they got out of the horrible game that is life.

I mostly feel this way when kids die or pre-teens die. My childhood was paradise and had I been hit by a vehicle and died at the age of like 11-12yo that would have been perfect, My childhood ended at 12yo so to have ended my life at the end of paradise before descending into hell would´ve been wonderful.

I've experienced jealousy of the dead. I'm really glad you started this thread actually. I feel relieved and validated to hear that others have experienced this feeling. I guess it's controversial whether Marilyn Monroe was killed or committed suicide, but either way, she shuffled off this mortal coil when she was 36. Sometimes I'm so ashamed to think this, but I feel like she sidestepped the agony of aging and losing her looks in Hollywood. Like, the world never knew her as anything but beautiful. Also, I live in the southeastern U.S., and a woman got killed in an alligator attack in my town recently. I experienced feelings of jealousy in that she no longer had to be alive anymore. But, a friend reminded me that that kind of death was probably horrific and painful. But, yes, I too feel envious of people who've already made it to the other side.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I've experienced jealousy of the dead. I'm really glad you started this thread actually. I feel relieved and validated to hear that others have experienced this feeling. I guess it's controversial whether Marilyn Monroe was killed or committed suicide, but either way, she shuffled off this mortal coil when she was 36. Sometimes I'm so ashamed to think this, but I feel like she sidestepped the agony of aging and losing her looks in Hollywood. Like, the world never knew her as anything but beautiful. Also, I live in the southeastern U.S., and a woman got killed in an alligator attack in my town recently. I experienced feelings of jealousy in that she no longer had to be alive anymore. But, a friend reminded me that that kind of death was probably horrific and painful. But, yes, I too feel envious of people who've already made it to the other side.

I wouldn´t envy anyone killed by an alligator; being dragged under water, drowning while getting the death roll and being ripped to pieces. Stuff like that makes me think about how lucky some people are to just die instantly by a gunshot, car accident etc. and other will die in horrific accidents, on workplace accidents, killed by animals etc.

But I´m glad you brought up the aging thing because I have always been obsessed with dying young just when I see people who died young they would become immortal in a way because people will always remember them as young. I especially remember this after watching a documentary about Charles Whitman where the police officers who shot him gets interviewed and you see pictures of them on that day and it´s just so soul crushing to see how old they have become after 50+ years of aging while Charles Whitman always will be forever young.

 

[azucaramargo]

I wouldn´t envy anyone killed by an alligator; being dragged under water, drowning while getting the death roll and being ripped to pieces. Stuff like that makes me think about how lucky some people are to just die instantly by a gunshot, car accident etc. and other will die in horrific accidents, on workplace accidents, killed by animals etc.

But I´m glad you brought up the aging thing because I have always been obsessed with dying young just when I see people who died young they would become immortal in a way because people will always remember them as young. I especially remember this after watching a documentary about Charles Whitman where the police officers who shot him gets interviewed and you see pictures of them on that day and it´s just so soul crushing to see how old they have become after 50+ years of aging while Charles Whitman always will be forever young.

Yeah, aging is really difficult: seeing it in others, experiencing it oneself.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Yeah, aging is really difficult: seeing it in others, experiencing it oneself.

I apparently look younger than I am so people mistake me for 17 even though I am 24yo but seeing old classmates Facebook photos makes me heart sink into my stomach I yearn for my perfect childhood and still feel like a child or a teenager (Peter Pan syndrome) so seeing all these old people and friends I used to have with kids, houses and the men who has full grown beards terrifies the hell out of me. I refuse to grow old I will die young! And because I see myself as a child and teenager I mind as be 70yo because I feel so much older than I really am.

 

[azucaramargo]

It's great to look young. I wonder why you are terrified to see your friends' kids, houses, and beards. I am 40, so a bit older than you. I hate seeing FB people with kids and good jobs and homes, but the hatred I feel is jealousy that they were able to achieve all that stuff. What about seeing your friends terrifies you? You don't want that life for yourself? Or, it's scary to you to see how others have changed?

I am pretty fixated on people's appearances, and I wish I weren't. But, do you also fear the loss of a youthful appearance? In others? In yourself? I'm just curious if the physical part of aging plays a role in your fear.

 

[stellabelle]

Oh I'm very jealous. My uncle was just killed upon impact in a car accident Christmas Day. I wish it was me.

 

[azucaramargo]

Oh I'm very jealous. My uncle was just killed upon impact in a car accident Christmas Day. I wish it was me.

I'm so sorry, Stellabelle. That's terrible news. Please talk to us here if you need. We are here to listen and care about you. My condolencess.

 

[stellabelle]

I'm so sorry, Stellabelle. That's terrible news. Please talk to us here if you need. We are here to listen and care about you. My condolencess.

Thank you. I appreciate the support and every member of this community.

 

[Pulpit2018]

I am SO jealous of the unborn.

 

[خوف]

I envy the dead. They aren't suffering in this life but they probably did when they were alive. I just wish I was dead right now. Part of me wishes I died through the process of being born. I was premature and apparently some premature babies do die. I wish I was amongst those few.