This might be it for me, fellas. I feel relatively calm. Hopefully nothing goes wrong and it's not too painful.
Cherrypea
I remember when all this will be again
- May 3, 2020
- 414
Sending lots of love and peace xxxx
Op also has a rope around their neck, guessing the pills are to help stay calm.
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
Sending you love and wishes for a smooth peaceful trip.
The pills are just to calm me down a bit, the rope is what's gonna yeet me out of existence
Sending you virtual hugs. I'm so sorry that life has brought you to this point.
I hope you're feeling okay at the moment. I notice it's been 22 minutes between posts. Have you had the rope around your neck this whole time or was your first statement more metaphorical?
If you're in the headspace for it, please feel free to share what's going through your mind right now. We're happy to talk if you need some company or just need to share.
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
I'm here for you to listen to anything you want to share.
Yes we r all here for you buddy ... Feel free to talk to us if it helps you
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
Um, sure I'll try to articulate my thoughts. Im sitting on a stool, the rope is right next to me, it was on my neck for a bit but i took it off for a while. Right now im going through my playlist to find something to listen to. I'm not in a rush, so I can take my time. The pills i took are making me a little light-headed, but not in a bad way. I feel calm, almost embracing the end, idk how long I'll be here but im certain I'll be doing it sooner rather than later.
Still here buddy
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
No real reason as to why im doing it now, I've had the plan for a while, today felt like a nice time to do it
Yes, i have a solid anchor point, I've tested it before, certain it'll hold
Mimi79
-Different -
- Oct 10, 2020
- 51
The night night has a few more extra steps and i realized i would have to go buy some stuff to make it work. Partial suspension seems more achievable, already had a rope and an anchor point, so I was like fuck it who cares
Meditation guide
Always was, is, and always shall be.
- Jun 22, 2020
- 6,089
TripleA
life is a struggle you cannot win
- Sep 25, 2020
- 276
I wish I could be a comfort for you in some way, whether it's to make your life a little more tolerable or to make your passing a little less scary.
I'm going to be honest here. I notice from another thread that you're 20. I taught a Sam N who would be 20 right now. There's a next to 0% chance that's you, but still, I have that image of my student in my head, sitting on a stool, so distraught with life, it breaks my heart.
What music are you listening to right now? Is it helping?
I'm going to be honest here. I notice from another thread that you're 20. I taught a Sam N who would be 20 right now. There's a next to 0% chance that's you, but still, I have that image of my student in my head, sitting on a stool, so distraught with life, it breaks my heart.
What music are you listening to right now? Is it helping?
sadworld
existence is a nightmare
- Aug 25, 2020
- 3,870
Good luck, hopefully you have a peaceful journey 
I'll be here to listen if you change your mind.
I'll be here to listen if you change your mind.
grungeCat
Awkward & weird
- Jul 5, 2020
- 1,110
Sorry you are driven into such a decision. I wish you good luck and safe journey! I'm sending love to you
Dw, the sam n thing is an alias. Im sorry for bringing out unpleasant feelings for you.
Im listening to this song called no surprises by Radiohead, it resonates with me a little bit so ya
I hope things go well for you, and you find the peace you desire.
Remember it's your decision and yours alone: you're in control of this so if you need more time or decide to back out altogether that's perfectly fine. Personal autonomy is a wonderful thing. If you do decide to go through with it I hope it'll be fast and relatively painless.
