Venting I've survived my attempt and I'm feeling totally numb.

[ExtraordinaryDefeat_]

All I want now is someone I can talk to because I'm feeling embarassed and useless. I know that ending your life is hard but I wanted to be succesful at least once in my lifetime. Please, may someone message me...

 

[suisuiforum]

I'm sorry you're experiencing this, failing my attempt is one of my biggest fears from actually committing, though it has slowly waned over the years as my mental state has declined to the point of no return. Ending your life is one of the most difficult things you can do, and it requires a shit ton of courage, contrary to what those pro-lifers say about cowardice. You're definitely not useless, and surviving is nothing to be ashamed of. I hope you feel better soon