Venting I've seen your flag on the marble arch

[BipolarGuy]

As you may know I had my SN delivered a few days ago.

I have a few things to sort out, but I'm planning on deleting myself from the universe within the next week and half, possibly 2 weeks if I fail to get my back side in gear and get things sorted fast.

I'm having a bit of an existential crisis.
I have tried to bring my life to an end on two occasions in the past, but this may be IT for me.
In as little as 2 weeks, maybe less, I may not be here.
I know that time will fly past.

This is what I want, but the idea that I will cease to exist is a bit weird.
The experiences that I have everyday will be no more. Obviously most of my life is BS these days anyway, and my 'life' is just an existence and that's not going to change.
But the thought of not actually existing is a weird one. The thought of returning to the state I was in prior to conception is a difficult one to get my head around.

I'd like to think I'm a good person who has a reasonable sense of humour.
Maybe I'll be remembered for that. Not that it matters because in 200 years I'll be completely forgotten about anyway, most likely sooner of course.

One of my first threads (see my profile) explains in a nicely concise way why I'm here at the gates of eternity again.

God I hope this works, when the time comes.

 

[Ghost2211]

Live up then next couple weeks. Do some fun stuff, eat some yummy snacks, and have a couple parties with us.

 

[BipolarGuy]

Live up then next couple weeks. Do some fun stuff, eat some yummy snacks, and have a couple parties with us.

Thank you.

I've been wondering where to do it.
I wouldn't do it at home.
The last time I did tried to do it was in a forest, and I don't want to do that again as weather is awful now it's almost October.
Beach could be nice. I have this idea of a warm night, clear sky and a full moon reflecting off of the sea. But that's probably unrealistic for October.
I've thought about hotel, but maybe that wouldn't be nice for the cleaner.

 

[Ghost2211]

Thank you.

I've been wondering where to do it.
I wouldn't do it at home.
The last time I did tried to do it was in a forest, and I don't want to do that again as weather is awful now it's almost October.
Beach could be nice. I have this idea of a warm night, clear sky and a full moon reflecting off of the sea. But that's probably unrealistic for October.
I've thought about hotel, but maybe that wouldn't be nice for the cleaner.

You could leave a note so they don't just walk in on it at a hotel.

 

[BipolarGuy]

You could leave a note so they don't just walk in on it at a hotel.

But if a note is left outside there is a possibility that somebody will see it and discover me too early.

 

[Ghost2211]

But if a note is left outside there is a possibility that somebody will see it and discover me too early.

No, ctb in bathroom and note on that door.

 

[BipolarGuy]

No, ctb in bathroom and note on that door.

Oh I see, I get you.

I could do it in the shower, that way I'd be washed and cured.

It may sound strange but I think I'd feel trapped if I did it in the bathroom. I think I'd like to be somewhere more comfortable if I did it in a hotel, for example on the bed or a sofa.

 

[Ghost2211]

Oh I see, I get you.

I could do it in the shower, that way I'd be washed and cured.

It may sound strange but I think I'd feel trapped if I did it in the bathroom. I think I'd like to be somewhere more comfortable if I did it in a hotel, for example on the bed or a sofa.

I feel you. I would also prefer to be comfy. Bring some duct tape and tape a sheet in the entryway with a note?

 

[BipolarGuy]

I feel you. I would also prefer to be comfy. Bring some duct tape and tape a sheet in the entryway with a note?

Possible.
I think that a delayed e-mail may be the more likely option for me.

 

[Ghost2211]

Possible.
I think that a delayed e-mail may be the more likely option for me.

Cool, just keep the door as set that you're there and cleaning staff likely won't enter.

 

[DyingAlf]

I'm thinking.... maybe book a hotel room specifically with a bathtub.
Take your own blanket & pillow/s with you (because they'll have to be disposed of after) to make a bed in the tub.
Maybe take a candle (if you like candles) & do it by candlelight, laying relaxed in the tub.

 

[mahakaliSS_MahaDurga]

As you may know I had my SN delivered a few days ago.

I have a few things to sort out, but I'm planning on deleting myself from the universe within the next week and half, possibly 2 weeks if I fail to get my back side in gear and get things sorted fast.

I'm having a bit of an existential crisis.
I have tried to bring my life to an end on two occasions in the past, but this may be IT for me.
In as little as 2 weeks, maybe less, I may not be here.
I know that time will fly past.

This is what I want, but the idea that I will cease to exist is a bit weird.
The experiences that I have everyday will be no more. Obviously most of my life is BS these days anyway, and my 'life' is just an existence and that's not going to change.
But the thought of not actually existing is a weird one. The thought of returning to the state I was in prior to conception is a difficult one to get my head around.

I'd like to think I'm a good person who has a reasonable sense of humour.
Maybe I'll be remembered for that. Not that it matters because in 200 years I'll be completely forgotten about anyway, most likely sooner of course.

One of my first threads (see my profile) explains in a nicely concise way why I'm here at the gates of eternity again.

God I hope this works, when the time comes.

I will remember you for as long as I live. That might not be for too long, but nevermind. You are not the type of person who could be forgotten easily, at least by me.

 

[TheQ22]

I too wonder about the strangeness of not existing any more, it is a mind boggler.