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BipolarGuy

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So I've ordered SN today.

No reliable sellers of N, so had to think of something else.

I already have prescription painkillers (codeine), anti-sickness (metoclopramide) and anti-anxiety (can't remember the name).

I've read that SN is used for curing, so let's hope this cures me...
 
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Good luck to you. I hope you don't have long to wait for it.
 
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I just got mine. Did blood test etc... And yes, it does cure us. Heh!
The feeling of actually seeing it relieved me. I plan to CTB in about 3 months, or whenever I need loose ends tied up. (will) etc. I have a grown son. And a beautiful cat companion. Need to make sure they are taken care of. :)
 
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I just got mine. Did blood test etc... And yes, it does cure us. Heh!
The feeling of actually seeing it relieved me. I plan to CTB in about 3 months, or whenever I need loose ends tied up. (will) etc. I have a grown son. And a beautiful cat companion. Need to make sure they are taken care of. :)

What's this about a blood test?
 
Drowning fish

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Have you already set a date to CTB or are you gonna wait some time once you get your SN ?
 
BipolarGuy

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Have you already set a date to CTB or are you gonna wait some time once you get your SN ?
I can't really set a solid date as apparently the delivery date could be in 10-20 days, so a reasonably large time interval.
 
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Meditation guide

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I can imagine what a relief it must be to have a way out. I'm happy for you.
 
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I can imagine what a relief it must be to have a way out. I'm happy for you.

Thank you.
I haven't got it yet, I just ordered it today.

I think it will feel a bit weird when it arrives.
 
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checkouttime

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That's fine. I'm not into cutting myself either.

I think you could pin prick to get blood! I don't fancy slicing myself either. I will probably prick myself with a syringe. Won't even feel it, if i do it sub q :smiling:
 
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That's fine. I'm not into cutting myself either.
You wouldn't need to cut, just prick one of your finger tips with a sterile needle and a drop or two will fall. Just in case you wanna test it beforehand.
 
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I think you could pin prick to get blood! I don't fancy slicing myself ever. I will probably prick myself with a syringe. Won't even feel it, if i do it sub q :smiling:

You wouldn't need to cut, just prick one of your finger tips with a sterile needle and a drop or two will fall. Just in case you wanna test it beforehand.

No I'm not worried about testing it at all.

Unless it arrives unprofessionally packaged, in an old jam jar with a label saying "SN" on it that has been written in crayon.
 
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No I'm not worried about testing it at all.

Unless it arrives unprofessionally packaged, in an old jam jar with a label saying "SN" on it that has been written in crayon.
Then you sir, have ballz of steel lol
 
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It's important to make sure it is pure enough. If it's not you may fail in your attempt. Do not trust it to be as shown. The actual purity or freshness might vary, and you need it to be potent.
 
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It's important to make sure it is pure enough. If it's not you may fail in your attempt. Do not trust it to be as shown.
Ok well drawing blood will not tell you the exact purity, in any case.

It may give an indication, but you won't, for instance, be able to tell the difference between 80-100% pure.
So not only is it uncomfortable, but it just doesn't serve a purpose.
 
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Ok well drawing blood will not tell you the exact purity, in any case.

It may give an indication, but you won't, for instance, be able to tell the difference between 80-100% pure.
So not only is it uncomfortable, but it just doesn't serve a purpose.
There are kits you can get that do it too. I know PPH sells one and someone else sells them too. I understand it can lose freshness over time also.
 
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fightorflight

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So I've ordered SN today.

No reliable sellers of N, so had to think of something else.

I already have prescription painkillers (codeine), anti-sickness (metoclopramide) and anti-anxiety (can't remember the name).

I've read that SN is used for curing, so let's hope this cures me...
Can someone tell me what SN is?
 
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fuzattojuliana

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I just have the sodium nitrate contact and I want to ask for this fast as soon but I'm nervous for external factors and worst I'm afraid of it too. I also was looking for N, but is so hard to find.
 
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No I'm not worried about testing it at all.

Unless it arrives unprofessionally packaged, in an old jam jar with a label saying "SN" on it that has been written in crayon.

I think your SN is coming from china, i think he said his name is C
 
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No I'm not worried about testing it at all.

Unless it arrives unprofessionally packaged, in an old jam jar with a label saying "SN" on it that has been written in crayon.
I admit I just laughed at your response! I have a similar sense of humour? or speaking? I did it because I don't have any problems cutting. It not, it's just heavy pure curing salt mostly for meats etc.. So its not hard to get here. It does feel weird when it arrives and you see it and know its actually a relief. For me, anyway.
 
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